[Kiya]

Last night was a weird mix of things. we'd been swapping out alters all week, got messed up on days, had a run-in with t the day prior and lil 8 had made T a necklace she'd wanted to give.... well when we finally got into t, she was REALLY late, and instead of having me go right back ahead of her, she said "I'll have you wait a moment" and there was another "what now" feeling... then we had to go to a different room - her's was being used @_@ *swap out*. What? No safe place?! T said we could porbably go there in 10 -15 min. and until then i could choose what room i wanted to be in (none? i choose none). So i just walked in the first one she'd opened and sat down. Once i got my berings, i realized i'd been in there once before when seeing someone else while T was on vaca. It was akward at first, and i kept losing sight of T - the darkness closed in and swallowed her up several times. But we did ask for the light to be turned on (yay) and did speak more than usual (t asked more general questions than usual)... and lil 8 did give her the necklace (that 22 didn't want her to because it wasn't "good enough"). T is so awesome. Said it was a very pretty necklace and she liked it just the way it is (not enough beads) and put it right on =) took off her other one. Made 8 proud.

(((((((((kiya)))))))))

that is so sweet you made t a pretty necklace. it sounds like she loved it. i'm sorry things have been hard and i hope things calm down soooooon.

[deliquesce]

yay for T and yay for 8 giving her a necklace!

good work on being able to work through a difficult situation, ((kiya)). i'm pleased you asked for the light to be turned on, that's a big thing to do. i lose sight of pdoc when the light isnt on either, but now he knows to turn it on for me anyway.

[phoenix7]

what a lovely gift for T - well done 8 and I am soooo glad she liked it - sorry you were triggered by the differnent room but it sounds like you handled it so well done.

I hope you get the room you want next time

[fallenangel337]

(((((((((((((Kiya))))))))))))))

[Sannah]

Good Work Kiya!

Oh, kiya!! I love, love, love that she took off her necklace and put on the one that 8 made for her. That gave me the warm fuzzies.

[Kiya]

thanks all - we do need the encouragement.... had to take anxiety med today to leave the house (friend wanted to go berry picking).

Originally Posted by treehouse

That gave me the warm fuzzies.

me too =)
been having difficulties the last 24 hours - starting to *try* to look at the trauma again. Each time we get a lil too close, shut down. but each time come away with a new insight to the puzzle, too.
Already wrote T to let her know that we're not doing well and will be glad to see her 3 days earlier this next time.
could really like for ppl to sit with us if anyone has the energy still. and if you's havin troubles too, then we's can keep each other company.

Always here to sit with you, sweet kiya... *reaching out for your hand*

[chaotic13]

Kiya from what you post about her, I like your T. I'm glad you were able to give her the necklace and that you wrote her.

[Kiya]

I like her too - seems highly skilled in many areas. I sure feel for her tho having to work with me.
I was going to post more, but it seemed to need to go in the "Survivors of Abuse" forum - so there it is. Tho i am tempted to delete it.... scared to brodcast it *sigh*
(((all)))

[phoenix7]

sitting with you my friend - taking a blanket and passing it to you and a cuddly too

please take care of you - I am glad you have such a good T -