[Brian37]

Wednesday 5:00....location: T's office/back parking lot.....there it was....old T's shiny new Red Volvo....I park next to it....she's here...good God

stumble into the canteen....purchase what I thought was a Mt. Dew for a 1.25$ and get a Diet Mt. Dew.....throw it in trash....deposit 6 more quarters....get regular Mt. Dew

go to office....there's old T's name on the door....Laurel %$@ ACSW,LCSW....&^%$#

sit in leather chair and await fate.....

family of three walks in and take 3 more chairs....son sulks in chair, looks 13, he gets called back by weird male T....mom / dad sit and read mags

another woman walks in and obviously hasnt been here....she looks lost and rings buzzer and sits down next to me and stares at floor....shes a client of old T....I can feel it

i try reading Southern Living magazine....not enough testosterone...shelve it and look stupid

door to offices opens and out she steps....old T.....she motions to woman next to me clutching her purse like it had the Hope diamond in it...she jumps up and goes in

then...

old T looks my way....."Hello, Brian"...and fades into hallway

i freeze....was I supposed to respond

3 more people come in....all chairs taken....you can cut the tension with a knife...and I really, really need to fart

my T is runnin late.....at 5:22 she calls me back after getting rid of young couple who spend way too much time in tanning bed

im just 10 feet away from old T who is across hall....her husband sent a big vase of flowers to her for her new office which according to my T has been decorated very nice ....well big friggin sh%t

my new T has been recovering from Bells Palsy whuch caused the left side of her face to become paralyzed....shes pretty well back to normal, but lucky...doctor said some people can have symptoms for up to a year....ouch...she had to wear an eye patch because her eye would not shut....I start calling her a pirate and tell her to swab the decks like a good
sailor...i suggested a fake hook for her hand...bad try at humor

we talk about old T for awhile....she tries to get me to realize that whats on the surface is all I was seeing.........good God I pay you money to to me that???

we dive into my general boredom with life...my boring marriage...boring job...boring life...did I mention I was boring???

meanwhile I drift back to old T...her superman husband...shiny new car...week in Texas with relatives...trip to Key West...her amazing church....(ok please dont ask how I know all this crap...I might get a stalking charge...shhhhhhh)

did I mention my heart stress test....everything is normal....physically that is

im outta breath....

Dentists recommend you keep your toothbrush at least 6 feet away from the toilet to avoid airborne bacteria and germs from the potty...mines less than 2

have a good day

[rainbow8]

Brian, I so relate about the feelings for your old T. I don't know what else to tell you. It's hard to see them when we can't SEE them, if you know what I mean. I hate seeing my T in RL because I want a session, not just to say "hi" to her.

I'm sorry you think your life is so boring. Does your T try to help you find ways to make it "unboring"?

[peaches100]

Brian,

I love the way you write!!!! Really look forward to these weekly briefings!

I can just sense how awkward it must feel for you to see old t. Especially when it's already hard for you to get her out of your mind.

Potty germs. . .ha ha! That was a funny bit of trivia.

Sorry you feel like your life is boring. Your writing sure isn't!

Take care.

[dolphinmkr44]

Brian this is the first time I saw one of your writings/ramblings. I don't think it was rambling. You did very good at capturing your feelings. These made me laugh the way you write it out. You should look into writing as a professional.

Okay, not to make light of your feeling though. I get your feelings about your old T. Also I, I don't think your life is boring. By your writing skill, I think you have talents that most of us may not have seen. Keep bringing your "weekly Rambling".

[Sannah]

LOL! Brian you are too funny! Do you have a local Comedy Club where they have amateur night?

Could your life be too boring because you are emotionally detached from it?????????

[KUREHA]

Lol I really like the way you write.

Mt Dew they stopped selling in years ago in the UK, now I have to buy it online.

Sorry you're finding everything boring, but the way you wrote that, you don't seem boring to me.

Seeing your old therapist must be kind of weird, hope things are going well with your new therapist though

(((((((((((((((Brian))))))))))))))))

Move your toothbrush.

[deliquesce]

brian, you're doing such good work in therapy, and i admire you for keeping your sense of humour about you. i love your therapy updates, they make me smile .

you should write all of these into a book about your experience with therapy. i would definitely buy it.