[del12]

I was wondering if anyone else has felt this way. Hopefully I will make sense.
Why is it that there are times when I feel like putting the brakes on sharing with my T. The past few weeks have been good in therapy and I feel as though I have made some progress (finally). I really like my T. My T is very supportive and (even though I sometimes doubt it- my own issues) is nonjudgemental. As the week comes closer I find myself thinking I don't want to go in there and share I just want to sit there. There is almost a sense of fear. I don't know if it is a fear that my T will get mad if I don't share or just a fear of going. Sometimes I just get mad that I have to go and I think why did I sign up for this in the first place..

Another question Do you ever get embarrassed by what you have shared? Not necessarily something you did, but how you feel about someone or something?

[sdl1986]

Because your therapist is just like you, another human being. It's a tough feeling to shake.

[3velniai]

imo it is natural to need a little break after something intense, you don't have to share big things every appt, it's ok to need to just be with.

[Amazonmom]

Sometimes I get embarrassed by what I shared....but it isn't my T that makes me feel that way. It's my own garbage that I bring into the room.

When I have shared something big, I need to let my poor brain settle down for a while. I need to just let my T and I talk for a while...to let myself know that I am not all broken pieces. Then my T starts wanting to actually deal with the issue I brought up! Silly T!

[rainbow8]

I'm embarrassed by a lot of things I've shared in therapy, and mostly by my feelings for my T that I shared with her. What helps is to realize that it doesn't bother her. She doesn't think less of me for my feelings. They are only embarrassing to me. It's like going to a medical doctor. I get embarrassed when I have to get undressed, but to the doctor, it's routine. Our Ts hear people's innermost feelings all day long, and it's our job to say what we need to in order to get the help we need, just like going to the medical doctor.

(((((del)))))

You are certainly not alone in this, and I think it's normal to want to put on the brakes and slow down in therapy sometimes. I am having a bit of a letdown after having a breakthrough and then processing through a big event that just took place. In my session today, I felt myself wanting to hold back and just be with my T.

I've also shared some things with T that I've never told another living soul, embarrassing things, so I can relate! But my T did not judge me, she only showed me warmth and understanding.

[del12]

Hey! the Thanks button keeps disappearing after I click on it. So thanks Dreamseeker and the rest for your support.