[Confused_1982]

Just wanted to share with you that I had t tonight, and was really worried about it before. I had written a some things down about how I felt t was going and how I thought he felt about me (all negative)., Anyway, he read it and just made me feel so much better. I have strong positive transference towards him, so any positive thing he does makes me feel good. We talked about some difficult stuff but he was sooo great today that I felt ok talking to him.

I normally feel something is not right between us when I leave and always worry about ehat he thinks about me, but tonight I feel that he is totally on my side and really understands me, so I just wanted to share it with you. For once in t I feel happy that we talked about the difficult stuff.
I'm trying to hold on to this feeling coz I know my mind will play tricks on me and I wont feel like this for long

[Elysium]

I'm glad to hear that you and T had a good session!!

I understand the feeling of leaving session feeling as if something isn't quite right.

I have T later today and I am hoping I can share some things with her that are difficult for me to share. Maybe not so much difficult for society in general...but I have always had internal rules (programming) and I think I might be pushing the envelope today.

Anywho...it's really nice when session can end with these feelings that you speak of. I hope they last a good long while for you and help you skate through your week!!

Thanks for sharing, take care!!

(((((((((((((Confused))))))))))))))))) I'm so glad you had a good session, and left feeling connected. That is such a good feeling.

My T actually leaves me a voice mail after every session, BECAUSE I always felt unsure about whether things were okay between us after I left. I think the original idea was to help me hold on to the "reality" of the session and not what my mind would manage to twist it into a few days later. I don't really "need" them anymore (after 21 months of therapy) but I still like them.

I wonder if you and T could come up with something that would help you feel more connected and comfortable between sessions? Another thing we used to do is stop 5 minutes early, so I could check in with myself and think about what I was going to worry about after I left- I could tell him right then, and we could deal with it right away instead of letting me spiral all week.

Therapy is hard work, and those good sessions are such a gift!