[Melbadaze]

This is not a vanity question.

Imagine you turn toward a mirror and you do not see yourself reflected back, there is nothing...how does that make you feel?

For me it makes me feel like I need to have something so bad, it makes me feel angry....it makes me feel like I want to eat and eat to get something inside of me to replace what isn't mirrored back...

[pachyderm]

What if you saw a monster in the mirror?

[ECHOES]

Who can LOOK?!?! , said the avoidant.

But I do understand the eating (buying...wanting?) to fill that void.

[BlueMoon6]

I understand what you mean. You look and dont see anything- I feel like I want to fill the void with anything. I can even fill it with drama that I create so I dont feel empty and bored.
Food/starving/obsessions/sex/spending the list goes on.....

[Yoda]

Originally Posted by Melbadaze

Imagine you turn toward a mirror and you do not see yourself reflected back, there is nothing...how does that make you feel?

Yoda thinks to herself when that happens, "Oh Sh**. I've become a vampire"!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, sorry, sorry, I know you are asking a serious question but sometimes it is just hard for me to suppress my humor.

Okay, serious now...

Personally I have never seen "nothing" when I look at myself. There have been periods of time when I was numb and devoid of feeling but honestly I think that was better than the pain I endured.

*TRIGGER*

I do recall in 2000 after I shot and killed my abusive boyfriend wondering what a person looked like after they killed another person and looked at myself a long time in the mirror. It was as though I expected a change in my eyes or something. That was a terrible time in my life.