I cried to T!

I hadn't seen T in 4 weeks, first session back was today, and I cried! Not that T was back - it really was like she never left, except that we had so much to discuss - but about some heavy issues that have really been weighing on my mind these past few weeks. I started to get choked up, cut myself off and started telling T about something else, then went back to this topic and really started crying. T didn't draw attention to my tears at all, she just kept me talking. And then we stayed on that topic, and I cried AGAIN - that time, I reached for the Kleenex - T jumped out of her chair to make sure I saw them and could reach them, LOL - I told her that this was the first time I've needed one of those, and T smiled at me and said, "Is it? Good for you!"

It was such a terrific session back, and it didn't even seem like it went too fast - we covered so much, and we really set the stage for where to go from here - lots of things to cover now!

I mentioned to T that I have to miss our session in a few weeks for a conference - I asked her if she thought it would be better to skip a week or have a phone session, and she wants to do the phone session! She said it would be different but good, so hey - I'm willing to give it a try!

I'm so happy my T is back!

((((((Oh Dream)))))) It sounds like the grief that Tree was talking about in another thread that people experience when they re-connect. Do you think?

It sounds amazing that you set the stage for where to go from there. You trust her and feel safe and comfotable and covered a lot of ground. How wonderful- you will get so much done!

Let me know how that phne session goes- I never thougth I could do that- I like to keep a close eye on a t

Actually, no - I wondered if I would cry and have that reconnection grief, but I was just all smiles and so glad to see T. It took a bit for us to talk about some issues before I felt safe enough to venture into this territory that I know is very emotional for me. But what I cried about had nothing to do with T being gone, it's just some of my issues that are coming to a head for me.

Oh...I get it. Even better. You have a wonderful connection with her to feel safe enough to go there

good for you, (((((dreamseeker))))).

you had a difficult session, but it sounds like it's really strengthened your relationship and trust in T. i read a lot of hope and optimism in your post re: where you will go from here - that must feel really good!

it sounds like this was a 'break through' session, of sorts, for you. where a dam had been building up and finally gets set free. i'm excited on your behalf about what you will cover in the next few weeks. i know it will be ultimately very healing .

Sounds wonderful, cathartic, and rewarding.

Cool.

(((((((((((((((((dreamseeker))))))))))))))))))

It sounds like a really powerful session It sounds like you are setting yourself up to make giant strides forward in your healing...such a good thing

Thanks, Tree - yes, it was a very powerful session. I'm still amazed by it, actually. I told T that I'm afraid if I don't hold back my emotions and just let it all go that she'll go away, so that led into some major exploration. And without T coming right out and telling me that yes, of course she'd still be there, I still felt it. And I think that may be the reason T wants to do a phone session and not just skip a week - maybe she gets, even more than I do, that I need to see her on a consistent basis right now.

Wow Dream, that IS very powerful stuff. You have a gem of a t there. That is very scary to feel that when you aloow yourself to show your feelings ro feel them the other person will go away and reject you. I can relate to that 100%.

Dream, Glad your return to T went well.

What a great session that sounds! I'm so pleased you were able to open up to T and you got what you needed from her- taking the risk paid off You have *seen* now that she WILL be there if you show her how you are really feeling. It sounds like you have enetered a new depth in your relationship- I'm really pleased for you

Thanks, Confused! In my session before this one, T and I talked about how I'm still testing her, and I think this was in a way another test - I felt safe enough to cry with her, and then when I did cry, she didn't go running! She just kept the conversation going, and it led us to some deep connections. And yes, it also led to a new depth to our relationship, and that feels very good.