I had my session this afternoon and she is trying so hard to make me feel safe in the world.

Well tonight on the way home from dog training, we drove by this tanning salon and my daughter saw through the windows this guy holding up two girls by gunpoint. There was police cars all over just getting there. My daughter doesn't seem to be affected by this, she says she feels okay.

But I am shaking, my nerves are shot, I just can't take anymore more of this messed up world.

I emailed my T because I feel really shaken up. My husband just left out of town too today and i just feel so vulnerable. This world feels so unsafe to me and I don't know if I can ever feel safe. I have had it.

[zooropa]

that's so scary, it would definitely shake me up, too, and probably trigger a big reaction. I'm glad you are able to reach out to your T.

[googley]

That is really scary. I'm glad you contacted your T.

Exotic - that sounds absolutely horrible. So sorry! I am very glad you contacted your T! Take care of yourself!!!

[mixedup_emotions]

OMG, that is so traumatizing! That's great that you contacted T.....((( HUGS )))

[BlueMoon6]

((((Exotic)))) That sounds so horrible. Im glad you emailed T, I hope you get a response soon.

Big Hugs to you....you caught a glimpse of the bad side, but there IS a larger good side to the world

Thanks all my PC friends for your support.
It really shook me up a couple of night ago. The girls did manage to survive that, but I am feeling for them right now. There were 2 gunman too. I went into a very dark place of no hope since then. The world looks so ugly to me right now. I have been in contact with my T by email and it helps a little. I am getting my migranes again because of the stress I think.

. But then today before my running class (remember I still see my racquetball instructor that verbally abused me, they move me to the running class) Well this morning I ran into my 1st T there, the one who was unethical with me. This is the 5ths other place I have ran into him besides his office. This is SO hard. Part of me feels comfort in seeing him because I miss him badly, but then part of me feels so uncomfortable too. LIfe is testing me to max right now. I just need something good to happen, just to give me some hope. I feel so down right now.

exotic So sorry things are so hard for you right now! I hope something good happens for you very soon!!!

[deliquesce]

Originally Posted by exoticflower

I just need something good to happen, just to give me some hope. I feel so down right now.

sweetie, i would be right where you are if all those really triggering and awful things had been happening to me on top of each other. but i'm curious to know whether you think you could make something good happen, instead of maybe waiting for it? is there something nice you could do for yourself? for someone else - a complete stranger? i'm just wondering if you could create a situation in which something good is more likely to happen?

[winterbaby]

That would make anyone freak out Exoticflower. Of course you would feel vulnerable and scared. Hope you are feeling better now. Love the picture of the rose by the way.