[googley]

I'm not seeing my T because I literally don't have the money for it right now. I was talking to a friend from home about some other stressful things and my money situation came up. (I didn't call him to talk about it, but he asked if I was coming home and I said I couldn't because I didn't have the money.) He asked if I had talked about what we were talking about with my T and I had to say that my discussion of the topic with her had stopped during our last session and so I wouldn't be able to take it up with her again until next month. He offered to pay for a session for me. I know that out of everything the cost that I pay for my sessions (with a sliding scale) is not enormous for him, but for me it still feels like a lot. I didn't call him to talk about money issues and he knows this. He helped me once before when I needed to take a trip for my professional development and I couldn't pay for the last ~50 I needed. I feel bad that he was offering to pay for it. I feel a need to be independent even when it seems like I can't do it on my own. I feel bad that he offered.

The other part of this is that I know that i don't have another session scheduled until mid January. I would need to call her and schedule another session. I went through the period of uncomfortableness of not having another session after my last one. I don't know that I want to have to do that again and I don't know if we would be able to do much with one session. We were planning on having a session some time between the other sessions, but money didn't work out that way. I feel like I have locked everything down and don't know if I want to open it all back up again.

I told my friend that I would think about his offer, but I don't know what to say. I was hoping you all would have some advice for me. I know I should call my T but I've never called her in between sessions before. I tried to ask my Pdoc about it when I saw him this week, but he didn't give me an answer or help me decide. Thank you.

[ECHOES]

googley, I think it depends on you If you want a session at this time.. and if you can accept your friend's generosity.. then this is an opportunity for you.

Your friend's offer felt reasonable to him. It is okay to accept with gratitude (no guilt required ). I'll bet your friend would feel very good about being able to help his friend. Letting someone help us is a gift, too.

[sittingatwatersedge]

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if you look inside yourself and you know that you are in need of seeing T before January (not want, need), then you might consider that Providence has sent you an opportunity, and the thing to do is to take it, with gratitude.

It's not about dependence or independence, it's about friendship, and that's a precious thing.

Perhaps you can pay your friend back in a non-monetary way - rake his yard, or teach her to do a French braid, or clean the refrigerator, or babysit, or teach how to use Excel spreadsheets, or something. Let your friendship be your guide. Many hugs to you

[susierose]

Seems you have a very caring friends there, and he wants whats best for you. I think if you really need to see your T then maybe you should except the offer. We all need a little help here and there even if we are trying to be independent.

[zooropa]

I agree that you could view this as a way of the "universe" providing you with the means to see your T during a really stressful time when you would be otherwise unable to do so. If it feels like that to you, and it feels ok to you to accept this gift from your friend, then go for it.
Regardless of what you do, I think it's great that you have a friend that cares so much about you. That's a keeper!

[Fuzzybear]

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