[Brightheart]

Somewhere along the line here I have come to realize that this site keeps me hanging on to my former therapist. I have always had a great fear of forgetting him...and the moments we shared together during my therapy experience. I am very grateful to have had this place of support to express my feelings...Thank you all. I hope in my heart that my therapist forgives my need to have expressed such sentiment time and time again and to have shared this with others. A room full of 100 psychologists could never convince me that I don't love him dearly. I do and always will. There is a deeper connection than "knowing" and I believe it's about simply being with someone and sharing space. I love him simply because he was there, he was breathing and he was alive. It's a love I wish very much to offer to others and will try to do so as I embark further on my journey toward becoming a therapist.

I wanted to repost this...which I've written before...but I think it really says it all.

Imagine that you have discovered an aspect of yourself that feels very pure and beautiful. Finding this has altered your life in very many positive ways. You feel energized and want to give of yourself to others. You feel reborn in some ways. You have learned how to love and appreciate yourself. And, having recognized this part of yourself with another human being present, this journey feels very much like a shared experience. It was something you found together that feels precious. You cherish the memories of your steps along the path. Your memories include a familiar smile and expression...a soft voice...a hand reaching out to offer you a kleenex...an errant strand of hair...a particular sound...a person who will always be dear to you...

My memories of him remind me that I am a kind and good person. Love...in any shape or form...has always been sacred to me. All of this is personal to me. But, yes, I do know he was doing his job. He did his job very well with me. Still miss him...

It is time to let go now.

Be well everyone.

[mixedup_emotions]

(((( HUGS ))))

Good luck to you on your journey....and know that you are welcome here any time...

[deliquesce]

(((((((((((brightheart)))))))))))

i don't think a room of 100 would ever want to convince you that you don't love your therapist. i think it's beautiful that you do. i know i love pdoc. he's been one of the most important people in my life. simply because he's been there. with me.

sometimes we meet people who inspire us to shine that same light they shone on us on other people. it sounds like your therapist gave you this remarkable gift. i hope it helps sustain that connection for you as you continue on.

do drop by & let us know how you're going from time to time, yes? i'll miss you, but i'm excited for you also .

[peaches100]

Brightheart,

What you wrote is beautiful and moving. It sounds like you had a very meaningful relationship/journey with your therapist and that it produced a bounty of fruitage in you that you are now ready to go out and share with others who are in need. What a wonderful experience of learning, growing, and giving. I have no doubt that you love your former therapist, as I feel certain he will also carry fond memories of you and the work you did together.

Best wishes, Brightheart! Do come back to visit!

A room full of 100 psychologists could never convince me that I don't love him dearly. I do and always will. There is a deeper connection than "knowing" and I believe it's about simply being with someone and sharing space. I love him simply because he was there, he was breathing and he was alive. It's a love I wish very much to offer to others and will try to do so as I embark further on my journey toward becoming a therapist.

I wanted to repost this...which I've written before...but I think it really says it all.

Imagine that you have discovered an aspect of yourself that feels very pure and beautiful. Finding this has altered your life in very many positive ways. You feel energized and want to give of yourself to others. You feel reborn in some ways. You have learned how to love and appreciate yourself. And, having recognized this part of yourself with another human being present, this journey feels very much like a shared experience. It was something you found together that feels precious. You cherish the memories of your steps along the path. Your memories include a familiar smile and expression...a soft voice...a hand reaching out to offer you a kleenex...an errant strand of hair...a particular sound...a person who will always be dear to you...

My memories of him remind me that I am a kind and good person. Love...in any shape or form...has always been sacred to me. All of this is personal to me. But, yes, I do know he was doing his job. He did his job very well with me. Still miss him...

It is time to let go now.

Be well everyone.[/QUOTE]

Brightheart, I understand.

I respect what you wrote in your post. I loved my therapist, too, in a way, few people (especially the psychological community)would ever understand. Your words are both, beautiful and accurate. You have written on paper, what I have been unable to articulate with words. My former therapist showed me parts of myself that I never knew existed. He taught me how to love others, mostly, how to love myself. I grew in his presence and in many ways, he grew in mine. I loved him quietly and deeply. A few other psychologists have shared this is textbook transference, but in my heart I feel differently. With him, mercy and grace were always in the room.

My life is forever changed by this man.

Thank you for so openly expressing the love you experienced with your therapist.