[lizlemon]

Saw my T this morning and this will be the last tme for one month. Last year when he went on holidays I was not too bad but this time I feel like bawling by eyes out. He and I have talked about it and how I was feeling with him going on vacation. He has provided me with any back up that I might need etc. but I am feeling soooo lost right now. I literally wanted to hang onto him this morning and never let go. I am missing him so much and it hasn't even been a day. I didn't think that I could feel this way about someone even him who I adore, but it is the worst feeling. I will be counting the days until I go see him again.

[mobius]

It IS really hard, and I understand wantign to hold on and never let go. But then again I pretty much always feel like that

I imagine you'll find a lot of support and commiseration here, lizlemon. Keep posting!

[MmeAllTalk]

I too had my final session before my therapist's break this morning and I feel abandoned and really neglected already. I hate these summer breaks, i hate having to depend on myself to deal with a life i find so hard to handle. My therapist is such an important part of my life and to not see her for so long tears at my heart . I wish you all the strength i seem to lack myself. Its so hard, but you are not alone.
Mel

[lizlemon]

All I have been doing since my T has gone on holidays is think about what he is doing and all the fun he is probably having with his family. I miss him so much and I am counting the days. I have 20 more to go. It is so hard. I just go to work and then come home and go to bed. I don't want to think so I sleep and then I dream about him. This is so much harder than I thought it would be. Just wanted to vent a little...thanks

[zooropa]

Ts going on vaction, it must be August
Not to minimize what you're feeling, liz. I know it's hard. It feels like such a long time. You can get through it, one day at a time. At least you have found this place where you know you can talk to others who understand

[Lauru]

Sending you hugs . I see my T on Thursday after a break of 35 days. It's been a long time. But I can tell you, it will eventually be over. Hope this helps even just a little.

[Oceanwave]

Hi Lizlemon, perhaps it would help you get though this if you try a different approach. Right now you have placed so much of yourself into your T. All the good things you are imagining him doing, all the fun he is having, etc. What would happen if you realised that all that good actually comes from you? Can you find in yourself all that fun and positive energy that you have placed into your T? That could help you put the centre of yourself back into yourself and acknowledge your true self-worth. Use this break as an opportunity to find all the good in yourself and use that in real life. Try out new things, apply what you have learnt so far. Once you are less focussed on T, it won't hurt that bad when your T is absent. In fact, you might find that it won't hurt at all.