Well, my T returned. It has been seven weeks since I saw him last. He was glad to see me, but I think I surprised him. He asked about the past seven weeks, and before I answered his question, I wanted to talk about the rupture. He wasn't even aware there WAS a rupture. He glanced away and then back...he became very serious.I read him what I wrote here in mid-August about the things I have realized about him, and ME, during this break. He told me he thought I needed to continue therapy, with him or without. He apologized and said he was caught off guard to learn I would be out the following week and he worried about the impact it would have on me. Through us both being caught off guard,he forgot to tell me his "back-up" plan. He said email is always fine, and phone is fine too. He was very compassionate, and went down my list and answered each question as honestly as he could. We talked about some BIG things that happened while he was away, T knows another reason I want to leave is because he also has another client who I know, and knows me, well. This client did something that hurt me while T was away, T knows I feel I can't talk to him about it. T asked me to stay, said we could work through these issues. Nothing is too BIG. So we did. T said, the way he saw it...He owes me some time and I stayed a few minutes over. T asked again...would I stay? I cried. I don't want to start over again. He knows my past, He knows I am scared. So. There we sat. T and me. Authentic. Real. Reconnecting, again.

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This sounds like a new beginning and a deepening of the therapy relationship. And it happened because you were courageous and allowed yourself to give voice to your concerns. That is a long time to hold on to important issues, to keep them there to be worked on. Good job!

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((((( lost ))))) That was very brave of you to go into session being so real and honest. That took guts and courage.

Keep on being honest. Relationships grow and change. They are living things - not static. Allow T to have space and time to learn you. It sounds like you are off to a very powerful start!