[googley]

I need my T. I have so much stuff all stirred up. I can't deal with it all. My work isn't working out. She said first it would be two days a week. But now it is only one. And this week she cut out some of the hours. This job is supposed to pay for T. But it can't if she doesn't actually give me work. I can't seem to get another job. I feel like a failure. I accidentally applied to work as a babysitter for one of my professors (on line). I need a job but no one will hire me. I either don't have the experience or am over qualified. I just feel so empty and alone. I can't stand this. I feel like there is just too much going on. I don't know that all of this work is worth it. I want to be a hermit.

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[geez]

((googley)) Please breathe. As a suggestion have you tried sitter city? (that is if you are looking for a babysitting job) I have a few mom friends who found sitters that way. Many of the people they interviewed were from the local university studying child hood development or were psych majors.

Please have faith that with some determination things will work out. Wishing you peace and many hugs.

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I hate that you feel like a failure You are not alone in not being able to find a job right now...can you hang on to the fact that it's not YOU, but it's the job situation in general?

As hard as it is, you are moving forward, step by step by step. Keep moving forward. You will find what you need

sweet googley

[zooropa]

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[googley]

It is so stressful. All I can see is a time when I'm not going to be able to afford T again. I don't feel like I can talk to her about it. I'm just so scared. If it wasn't about being able to pay for T, I could say, well it is just the economy and there isn't a lot of work out there. But I need to be able to see my T. I don't know if I can go through another period of not seeing my T or having to switch to a new T. I can't stop myself from obsessing about it.

[Oceanwave]

Originally Posted by googley

I need my T. I have so much stuff all stirred up. I can't deal with it all. My work isn't working out. She said first it would be two days a week. But now it is only one. And this week she cut out some of the hours. This job is supposed to pay for T. But it can't if she doesn't actually give me work. I can't seem to get another job. I feel like a failure. I accidentally applied to work as a babysitter for one of my professors (on line). I need a job but no one will hire me. I either don't have the experience or am over qualified. I just feel so empty and alone. I can't stand this. I feel like there is just too much going on. I don't know that all of this work is worth it. I want to be a hermit.

(((Googley)))

I know the feeling. And, believe it or not, the only way is up. Usually it's hard to get jobs for which you are overqualified, and it's best to keep applying for the ones that are related to your field of experience and qualifications. It is hard, but sooner or later something will turn up. Try to persevere for now and don't lose heart. It's a particularly difficult time to be on the job market. I hope you can open up to your T about this and figure out some good strategic plan together.

[little*rhino]

honey i get feeling the same way... money is tough and i had to cut back on T and i am so afraid of not being able to go at all

but listen... there is something to hold onto - nothing stays the same forever. As bad as it feels it will get better again. And, while you might not have T as much as you want or need, you will be able to have it more that way again someday.

we tend to see it as forever... and mostly because we can't see the solution yet... but deep breaths, ok? One day, one step at a time...

the only i could do to calm myself was to remind myself that even if i had to take a break from T it doesn't mean forever. What it does mean is that i would be trying to manage and do the best i can for me with what i have. And, as my T reminds me, seeing T one hour per week or every other week... even if i saw him every day, it's still a very small fraction of your life - which means that most of the time you are ok on your own. It just doesn't feel that way right now

that hour is so important but it is just an hour... so hold onto the strength of knowing that you can do it because you ARE doing it, everyday

despair is terrible pain and i am so sorry you're struggling. i hear you, believe me. Just try to look at the bigger picture and remember that you just don't know what will happen tomorrow, next week or next month. Try to stay positive focused and write down all the positives you can think of... because that will allow your mind to be open and it will see other opportunities better and faster

peace

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