I talked about It

I talked about a really hard topic in T today. I've mentioned it before here, but not what it was (and not going to mention what it is now). But I'm really proud of myself. My T sat there with me until I was able to talk about it. I needed time to adjust myself to talking about it even though I had been thinking about it a lot. It took probably half the session to get it out, but I was able to tell her what it was about, and some of what it was. It was really scary to talk about, but like my T said, it wasn't as scary after it was out there. Some of the fear went away.

She sat there with me and said that she wasn't going to guess or pull it out of me. That made me feel worse because I couldn't talk about it. I told her that. She said that was not how she was intending what she said. I told her I knew that she didn't intend to make me feel bad.

But it was nice to be able to sit there until I could talk about it since it would have been easier to just avoid it and talk about something else instead, but I really needed to talk about this.

I don't feel like I am so alone with it all now. But I know it is going to take a lot of talking about. I just hope I can get myself to talk about it again.

That's great!! I know how incredibly difficult it is to talk about hard stuff in therapy. It's so easy to just avoid it altogether...but then it eats away at you until it just comes pouring out. Like shaking a soda bottle...eventually the pressure builds and it just explodes....I also know what it's like to want T to help get the information out, because it's just so so so hard to say. I'm with ya on that one....I'm so glad you had the courage to make this big step. (( HUGS ))

Googly,
I am glad that you were able to open up and talk to your t about what you needed to. I know it is incredibly difficult to be soooo vulnerable. It sounds like she can support you and help you through this. Take a big sigh of relief and know that you are not alone in this anymore. It was not too much for her and she is going to help you. Good Job Googly!

Oh and be gentle to yourself now. You have really worked your emotion muscles. ok?

Yay, good for you Googley

((((((((((Googley)))))))))))))

You are so brave!

I've noticed that after I share something big with T, I first have this feeling of "I'm not alone now" and then when I get home and between sessions, I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooo alone. Maybe because there is finally, finally someone who "knows" and not being able to be with that person is painful while I'm muddling through all of the crap.

She is still there. We are here too. You're not alone with it.

I'm so proud of you for talking.

Way to go !!!!! The hard part really is just getting it OUT of the inside and allowing another to see what 'it' is. Good work!

(((googly)))yay so glad for you.

Way to go Googley!! That takes so much strength and bravery!

Googley,

Congratulations on doing a very difficult thing!!! I'm so glad you were able to summon up the courage to tell your t what you needed to. I'm glad too to hear how supportive she was in being there with you, patiently waiting until you felt ready to share. Good Work!!!

Great stuff. You were really brave. There are a LOT of topics I am too scared to talk to T about, and I know that being able to push past these fears is the start of healing.
I am really proud of you - that really inspires me!

Googley: I'm very proud of you!!! I know how hard it is to talk about hard stuff in therapy, and you've been wanting to for a while. Give yourself a pat on the back--lots of pats on the back. You did great work!!!!

Good work Googley!