So there is a massive blizzard coming tonight and since t's office is about an hour drive from the city that I live in, I had to cancel. Now I'm just feeling very vulnerable. I was already feeling very disconnected with t and this certainly isnt helping. We are doing a phone check in tonight but that doesnt really even begin to replace my appt. I'm not sure what I'm feeling it seems to be a great mix of emotions. Despair maybe thats the word for it. I realize none of you can do anything unless you can change the weather but I don't really want to suffer alone if no one minds.

[SpiritRunner]

sending you lots of warm hugs! you're not all alone!

[rainbow8]

((((((katlover)))))))

You're definitely not alone! I worry every week that bad weather or illness will cause me to miss a session. It hasn't happened yet with this T but I know it's inevitable. Yes, despair is the perfect word for it. I feel that even THINKING about my session possibly being canceled.

Keep posting! You've got lots of support here. We can all drink hot cocoa with you while we watch the snow come down from inside our warm houses. Okay?

Thanks rainbow and poet. The blizard just hit about an hour ago so t is definitely out now. Thanks for the hugs. I've sort of retreated into myself so I don't have much to say. Sorry. Just wanted to thank you both for your replies.

Rainbow- hot cocoa sounds good. Maybe I'll curl up in a blanket and drink some cocoa. I think t would think that was a good self soothe. Thanks for the idea.

[granite1]

i love hot coco with lots of whip gream.sorry about T will T be willing to do a makeup

[skeksi]

That happened to me last year, too. It made me very unhappy! I worry a little bit every week about the weather--I don't want to miss T, but I don't want to be stuck on the roads in terrible weather, either!

When I have to miss an appointment, I try to observe that hour anyway; I sit quietly with my journal and think and write about whatever it is we've been discussing. It's not a substitute, but it is nice to still take that hour for me.

[WePow]

sending tons of hugs to you - I do hate it when snow makes me miss T !!! ugggggg

(((((((((Kat))))))))))))) joining in that cup of hot cocoa, i like Granites idea of adding whipped cream, i only have little marshmallows at home, so i will be adding those... seems like i got dinner all planned now... thanks and sending safe hugs to Katlover!

[Sweetlove]

Kat, so sorry you have to miss your session. We are supposed to get some snow on Fri, when my T is, and I'm panicing I'm going to miss my session...So sorry you have to miss yours...are you going to reschedule?

My t can't reschedule she is booked solid. Besides that I'm snowed in with at least a foot of snow. :P at least there is no school I guess. I tried calling t last night. She picked up and said she would call me right back. Well she never did. I'm trying to debate on whether to call her today. Maybe she had a reason for not calling me back. I don't want to be needy. What would you guys do? If you would call her back what would you say? I'm not too smooth with words.

i feel like calling t but I'm worried she'll be mad at me. I hate running circles in my head.

[googley]

((((((((kat))))))))

Your T will not be mad at you. She was the one who didn't call back. Maybe her cell ran out of batteries? Or something else happened. There is no reason for her to be mad at you. If you want to call her you should. You missed your session and it would be good to connect with her. Can you make snowpeople? Or snowangels with all the snow? I hope you can find a way to enjoy it. Yay for no school!

[Perna]

I am so sorry! I use to hate winters when I saw T and had to keep an eye out for the snow and pray it didn't fall/mess up T day. I even had a nightmare once, the first time after T and I terminated, where we met on a snowy road, were supposed to meet that day for the first time in months/years and I had been so looking forward to it but she explained we couldn't because of the weather, would have to reschedule.

[Sweetlove]

I would call T and say "I hope I'm not bothering you, I thought you were going to call me back last night but maybe I missed your call. Just wanted to touch base again if that's ok"...something like that? Just so you let her know that you were worried you were bothering her and you really needed to hear from her. I hope you can call her and it works out.

I got a hold of my t last night. We had a short conversation maybe 15 minutes tops. I wasn't able to tell her about my feeling of disconnect however. I guess thats okay. The feeling is just making me feel very vulnerable. Maybe I'll call her back and tell her about it . I don't know I have to think about it. Thanks for all the replies.