[JustWannaDisappear]

My homework for this evenings appointment is to come up with a distorted thought I have about myself and refute those thoughts. I'm having problems thinking of anything. I guess I'm not sure I understand it and I feel like everything I come up with is stupid.

I called my T and asked her to call me back and refresh my memory about my homework, so she left me a voicemail and I've listened to it twice now and am still lost.

Can anyone give me some examples of an irrational/distorted thought and ways to refute it?
I have a couple things in mind but I'm still unsure,
1. My parents (moreso my mom) have always compared me to others. I've never been pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough or nice enough for them. Or that's at least how I feel. My mom has a couple of friends who are my age and married without kids. They're sisters and are completely gorgeous, my parents do things with them all the time. And I constantly think about it and get jealous because I wonder how I can be like them so maybe my mom will love me or at least like me. Yet, I know she does love me.

I know that is irrational and completely stupid. But WHY?! Every time I see or talk to my parents I get really depressed. I feel like I'm always being judged. Does this make any sense? Is this on the right track or am I way off base here?

And no, I will not ask my parents about it, lol.

[sittingatwatersedge]

(((JWD))) seriously, you might just start right here -->> II feel like everything I come up with is stupid.

that's pretty darned negative.

Think back... did anyone ever tell you that your ideas were stupid? Maybe you were misunderstood a lot, overruled a lot, ignored a lot, judged a lot, manipulated a lot, teased a lot?

I bet you can also ocome up with some good ideas you have had, creative ones, funny and unique ones, good advice you have given to a friend; there is probably a lot of that.

just thinkin........ good luck