it is only thursday

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 11:03 AM

it is only thursday and i am already thinking of all the terrable things that i may have to face in mondays session

why cant i just let the feeling i had at the end of last weeks session just be truth.but instead i can already hardly remember what T said.yes i can remember feelings but cant shake my rreality that things will change again this monday

Mar 03, 2011, 11:22 AM

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Originally Posted by granite1

but cant shake my rreality that things will change again this monday

But that isn't "reality". That's your thinking taking over. Try to focus on the actual reality that things went well last week and they will probably go well again this week.

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 11:32 AM

farm girl i realy hope so it would be realy nice but i am scared.you sound like my T

sittingatwatersedge · Mar 03, 2011, 12:12 PM

hi Granite!

If you find it hard to remember what T said in yr last meeting, you might go look at your post - you did a wonderful job of relating a lot of what went on.

Please go gently, and see if you can divert yourself from worry.

Sannah · Mar 03, 2011, 02:34 PM

SpiritRunner · Mar 03, 2011, 03:19 PM

The suggestion to re-read what you posted about your T and her words to you last time is good. Maybe that will help you focus on the reality of how good things were then and how good they can be going forward.....a new reality with hope and care and trust in it!

lastyearisblank · Mar 03, 2011, 03:23 PM

monday does seem far away!

hang in there granite- bet she's going to be happy to see you

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 04:28 PM

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Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

hi Granite!

If you find it hard to remember what T said in yr last meeting, you might go look at your post - you did a wonderful job of relating a lot of what went on.

Please go gently, and see if you can divert yourself from worry.

thanks sitting i'm ashaimed that i didnt think of that but i also know she said so much more but i am going to read it now

.thanks sitting it really may help and i hopw it is the same monday. i feel like i'm not even giving it a chance because i am so afraid.

PTSDlovemycats · Mar 03, 2011, 04:30 PM

Granite, there is no need to feel ashamed about that, All the best to you Sweetie!

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 04:30 PM

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Originally Posted by lastyearisblank

monday does seem far away!

hang in there granite- bet she's going to be happy to see you

it seems like eternity when i am trying to hold onto good feelings and trust

PTSDlovemycats · Mar 03, 2011, 04:32 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

it seems like eternity when i am trying to hold onto good feelings and trust

I can relate to that Granite. I am much more comfortable with negative feelings and emotions over positive ones.

lastyearisblank · Mar 03, 2011, 04:33 PM

i know

. i think this is a new side to her and it will take getting used to. but hopefully she's there to stay.

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 04:40 PM

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Originally Posted by poetgirl76

The suggestion to re-read what you posted about your T and her words to you last time is good. Maybe that will help you focus on the reality of how good things were then and how good they can be going forward.....a new reality with hope and care and trust in it!

thanks poet i realy hope this is reality and she will be ok if i cant talk to her.i am going to try.about what i dont know every time i seem to have a plan it dont work so monday no plan it is whatever.i am going to try and realx and if i am unable to speak i am going to try and not worry about what T is thinking.i believe a while ago someone sugested this

granite1 · Mar 03, 2011, 04:42 PM

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Originally Posted by PTSDlovemycats

Granite, there is no need to feel ashamed about that, All the best to you Sweetie!

thanks

PTSDlovemycats · Mar 03, 2011, 05:19 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

thanks

Your welcome, I wouldn't say that if it wasn't true!

granite1 · Mar 04, 2011, 06:57 AM

i'm scared again i am so sorry

i'm not sleeping well at all is worse than ever i'm only getting a few hrs a night.

Mar 04, 2011, 07:10 AM

Have you ever thought about going twice a week, granite? I had a really, really hard time holding on to the connection too, and going twice a week helped a LOT.

WikidPissah · Mar 04, 2011, 07:11 AM

granite remember, your T said she cares about you. She said that she is not angry with you. She said that she trusts that you will be able to do the work. Just try to give a tiny bit of that trust back.

granite1 · Mar 04, 2011, 07:14 AM

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Originally Posted by treehouse

Have you ever thought about going twice a week, granite? I had a really, really hard time holding on to the connection too, and going twice a week helped a LOT.

she only works 3 day weeksand i would be terrified to ask her because of the expectation to talk maybe i would if i could talk.i realy wish that this was a real possability because i have thought about it but i dont think i could ever ask

granite1 · Mar 04, 2011, 07:23 AM

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Originally Posted by Eileen2010

granite remember, your T said she cares about you. She said that she is not angry with you. She said that she trusts that you will be able to do the work. Just try to give a tiny bit of that trust back.

she really did say that she cares about me a lot and doesnt want me to turn her into this awfull mean person.that she isnt this person at all and she doesnt want to hurt me at all but wants to help me.

SpiritRunner · Mar 04, 2011, 08:17 AM

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Originally Posted by granite1

she really did say that she cares about me a lot and doesnt want me to turn her into this awfull mean person.that she isnt this person at all and she doesnt want to hurt me at all but wants to help me.

Hold on to that, granite, and let it become stronger and more real in your mind, stronger than the fear or worry.

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