My session today started out quiet. I felt shy, awkward and very very aloof. I did not want to talk and I did not want analyzed. However as time passed I began to feel threatened, and I pointed it toward my therapist. I at one point even began telling her that she would do me like my abuser did me. She looked at me with this concerned look and said I hope you don't see me like that, I would not ever hurt you. At that point, I don't remember much, I do know I began to "lay some things out on the table". I felt like this small child going back in time. Then all of a sudden I knew I was in her office and there she was knelt down by me holding me while i was crying. I raised up away from her, still crying but my nose began to bleed as it often does when i get very upset and I couldn't believe that I let her hug me or hold me. We still talked although very briefly as she said I think you need air.

I felt as though she cared and for the first time since therapy, I realized, She, like any other person just wants what is best for her clients, she wants to see me well, not hurting. Her consoling me, helped me console that inner child. This was a good session. I'm proud to have a therapist like i do .

[swimmergirl]

I'm glad things went well for you. Everyone deserves a T like that. Good work!

I'm so glad your T was caring for you, and that you can see her that way.

[online user]

It is very, very good that you can see all of this. How you felt, how you felt about your therapist, what transpired, and how you feel now. Sounds like you are making real progress in understanding yourself, the therapy process, your therapist, and your progress! Well done!

If you don't mind me asking, Carinhart, how long have you been seeing this therapist? Is this your first therapy experience? How experienced is your therapist? In other words, has she been a therapist for many years or is she relatively young and new to the job? I think those questions are important when you're trying to determine what's going on when a client suddenly views their therapist as dangerous or about to hurt them in some way. That's a pretty significant change in perception, especially when you regressed ("to a small child"), disconnected from yourself and then come to, crying and being hugged by your therapist. I'm not saying that she is abusive or unprofessional in any way. I just wonder if she's aware of the different things that can happen to a client when they regress like this. I sure hope you and she are able to work through this in a way that is supportive and helpful to you!

[dizgirl2011]

I am really pleased your session turned out to be what sounds like a turning point for you in your healing but also between you and your therapist, it must have felt lovely to be comforted like that! You deserve a wonderful therapist and I am pleased you have one!

Originally Posted by Jaybird57

If you don't mind me asking, Carinhart, how long have you been seeing this therapist? Is this your first therapy experience? How experienced is your therapist? In other words, has she been a therapist for many years or is she relatively young and new to the job? I think those questions are important when you're trying to determine what's going on when a client suddenly views their therapist as dangerous or about to hurt them in some way. That's a pretty significant change in perception, especially when you regressed ("to a small child"), disconnected from yourself and then come to, crying and being hugged by your therapist. I'm not saying that she is abusive or unprofessional in any way. I just wonder if she's aware of the different things that can happen to a client when they regress like this. I sure hope you and she are able to work through this in a way that is supportive and helpful to you!

I've been seeing this therapist for several months now. She has been a therapist for over 30 years. She isn't my first therapist, my third actually. She isn't a young therapist at all.

i am glad that your t knew what you needed and gave it to you. sometimes when i cannot find my voice, t will say something to bring me back and it usually feels safe. Glad your t was able to do this for you

sending safe hugs

[WePow]

You did GREAT! It is very hard to allow ourselves to take down the walls and allow anyone inside where the pain (and risk) is the greatest.

[SpiritRunner]

I am glad that you felt like you could talk after a while and that you have a t who cares so much!

[peridot28]

carinheart, that sounds like a really sweet session. I'm glad you were able to connect with your T and allow her to be there for you and comfort you. You deserve to be loved on and care for in a safe way and it sounds like your T gave you some of that today.