[spaceid]

I've had a really emotional week and have an appointment with my T on Monday. But I cannot wait! I wish I could see her right now! I am counting down the hours to see her. Does anyone else get like this?

I am feeling so blah. I'm hurting, I'm scared, I'm depressed, I'm confused, I'm bored, I'm lonely, and I'm tired of crying. I hate this.

Me:

[Flooded]

Know exactly what you mean. Hope the days go quick for you.

[PTSDlovemycats]

Yes I often go through periods like that myself. Try to keep yourself busy and distracted. Remember a watched pot never boils!!

[SpiritRunner]

I understand too! (((((((hugs))))))))!!

I can totally relate. Happens all the time to me. I just saw my T yesterday (Friday) and already feel like I need to go back and its only one day later. (((((((((hugs)))))))

[dizgirl2011]

Hey,

don't worry I think most of us have felt that way many times. I hope today and tomorrow pass quickly for you. I also have a session on monday and although I don't think it will be a good one (long story) I want to do it now!

we are here if you want to talk, this site is great for support.

[rainbow_rose]

Originally Posted by spaceid

I've had a really emotional week and have an appointment with my T on Monday. But I cannot wait! I wish I could see her right now! I am counting down the hours to see her. Does anyone else get like this?

I definitely can relate.

[*doodles*]

Oh yes, I get like that too. Hope this weekend passes quickly for ya! I've been thinking about ya, how did that convo go??

I can relate too! Sometimes its hard to wait until the next appointment!

[spaceid]

Originally Posted by doodle3609

Oh yes, I get like that too. Hope this weekend passes quickly for ya! I've been thinking about ya, how did that convo go??

Well, I told him I liked him and wanted to be more than friends. He said that school is his priority right now and since I like him he should not have hooked up with me. He apologized for saying one thing to me (how he wasn't sure he could have a relationship while in school) and then doing another (seeing me all the time, sleeping with me). I didn't text him back. I liked that he noticed that he had said one thing to me and then did another, but I figured it was a lost cause. Then he texted me back and said that I'm important to him and that we need to sit down and have a conversation about it. I'm not sure what that means. I don't want to get my hopes up and think that means he has feelings for me.

A couple of hours after the text conversation I had to drive him to the airport. He's going on vacation to see an old work buddy for a week. He said that he would make me breakfast before we left. So I went to his house thinking we would have this important conversation, but it was like nothing had changed. I thought it would be awkward to see him, but he was so happy about going on vacation. I didn't want to be in a bad mood when I saw him because I wanted the conversation to not be too heavy. Instead he just kept making me laugh and said I should be going with him on vacation. Thing is he jokes around a lot and it is hard to tell when he is serious. Plus we couldn't really talk that much because his father was making breakfast as well. So I thought we would talk about it in the car. Nope. All he talked about was the driving school he had to go through in the police academy. After I dropped him off he told me to call him when I got home. I did and he thanked me for dropping him off and called me a sweetheart. Needless to say I am more confused than I was before.

I get such different advice. Some people say that he's just using me and that I need to get rid of him. Others say that he obviously cares about me and when he gets back from vacation maybe he will at least want to try a relationship. I don't know anymore. I know if he does not want a relationship I cannot be his friend because my feelings are too strong for him. I don't want to be kept around just for his ego. But I know he cares about me. There was a period where I was depressed earlier in the semester and I wasn't waking up for my classes so he started calling me to wake me up. He makes sure I always have something to eat. He even said that I should go over his house while he is on vacation and have dinner with his parents. When I wasn't getting enough hours at work he pulled some strings with the manager and got me more hours. This is the most confusing situation I have ever been in. I just got off of the phone with him and he automatically says he'll talk to me tomorrow. So that means he's going to call me every day he is on vacation? I thought I wasn't going to hear from him at all.

I cannot wait until he gets back and we can talk about this. And I cannot wait to talk to my therapist about this either. I hate being so confused. I figured after he came back from vacation we would never see each other again except at work, but now I have no idea what is going to happen.