I wrote the Errrrggghhhhh post a couple days ago. Those same feelings still did not pass. Heck, in fact, with the new emotions added on I feel worse. I feel negative and never happy, which in turn makes me feel like I'm a burden on T and the one friend I have. Perhaps I don't have friends because I always feel this way? I dig deep to try and find something good, but there just isn't anything good right now. Processing my past in therapy and dealing with present issues that arise always leave me wondering how much longer I'm going to have to keep fighting before I feel better. I'm tired and just don't know how much more energy I have to put in it.

[granite1]

i understand.im sorry all i have to give are hugs and understanding if you will accept them

Thanks for you're reply Granite. I accept the hugs. And want to give you some as well...