[WePow]

Well, I am home from Florida. I survived !!!!
I'm bushed from driving all day. But wanted to let you guys know I made it. I was supposed to see my T Friday but we bumped it up to Thursday. I wish it was tommorow but I need to get myself together a bit.

I got to spend time with my brothers, and that was why I went down there.
Also spent a lot of time with my mom. Some with my dad. But I didn't let him get away with changing the story to make him look good. When we were talking about some of the things in our past, I was VERY honest! My mom was in SHOCK and said she had no clue that stuff was going on. I would just stop my dad and tell him in my imitating T voice "That isn't how it went down. THIS is what happened."

I know it may have shaken a few limbs on the old family tree, but those things needed to be said.

Yesterday though my dad got a letter in the mail from one of my 1/2 sisters that never talks to him. She is on a spiritual journey and wanted to just tell him a few things to get them off her chest from the way it sounded. But my mom read the letter to my dad out loud infront of me and my brother! And my half-sister said right there that she was angry with our father for "childhood abandonment and sexual-abuse" ((My father left his first family when they were kids)).

I knew he hurt my other 1/2 sister, but I had no idea that he also hurt that one!! I was so angry but just went outside. I called my T but it went to voicemail. I told him I didn't need anything from him, so he didn't call back. And email was out of the question. But I am glad I could at least call his phone.

Last night I just laid in bed down there and held my left hand palm up. When I saw T last, I asked him to say a prayer for me and he put his hands ontop of mine and I was litterally absorbing the sensation. So instead of being in pain last night about my dad, I was able to feel the SAFE hand of my T on my hand and I was OK.

I am SO thankful our last session was that powerful and healing for me!

[SpiritRunner]

welcome back! sounds like you had a productive trip....

[googley]

((((((((((((WePow))))))))))

I'm so glad that you are back.

It sounds like you had a really intense visit with your family. I'm glad that you were able to stand up to your father and use the example your T has provided.

[granite1]

welcome back wepow you were misse hereim glad you survived the family thing and i am so proud of you for making your farther not color coat the truth.

[zooropa]

wow, wepow, what a journey you were on! I'm so glad you were able to carry that feeling of T being with you and access that feeling when you needed it.

Also glad you're home safe.

[rainbow_rose]

welcome back, WePow.

[rainbow8]

I missed you, WePow! Glad you're back. I'm glad your trip turned out so well and that you could remember your T's safe hand on yours instead of feeling bad about your father. I'm so impressed with your progress!

[learning1]

Wow, that's wonderful you told your Dad like it is. and what a coincidence that your half sister sent the letter while you were there, and it corraborated what you were saying- that your Dad was abusive.

[Oceanwave]

Welcome back! You are very brave, WePow. I'm glad it went reasonably well.

(((((((WePow)))))))

You handled a difficult situation so so well. I loved that you were able to reach out to T on his voice mail, and to remember the feeling of his hand as you needed some comfort as you drifted off to sleep.

I'm glad you're back

[WePow]

(((((All))))) you guys are so awesome! It really was a good trip. It was so powerful to be able to stand in my own health and wellness and not allow the family disease to pull me down. And I know it helped heal my mom and brothers as well! My youngest brother was the scapegoat in the family and has a TON of issues around all that, but he hasn't worked through them. He has four daughters and I know they have a lot of residual issues due to my father's abuse to my brother. What I shared with him and his wife was eye opening for them. I was sitting there and litterally seeing their eyes open wide as I was helping put together the pieces for them. So I know that this will help my nieces in the long run. And that was why I had to go on this trip.

I am very excited to be able to share this with my T tommorow! It showed me that my last two years of intense therapy and trauma work have just paid off. Not only for my own healing, but for my two brothers and my mom and my four neices.

[mixedup_emotions]

(((( WePow ))))

I typed out a post last night but apparently it didn't post. Grr.

I am in such awe at your accomplishment! You DID IT!!!!! And you worked so hard to hang onto the goodness of your relationship with T instead of slipping into the ugliness of your family trauma. I am so so so happy for you.

[sittingatwatersedge]

welcome back wePow! we missed you!

[dizgirl2011]

Wepow!!!

Your post is so inspiring and so full of strength!! I don't want to sound condesending but I am soooo proud of you for how you handled the trip!! You deserve and award definately - Your T is going to be so pleased and proud of you also! To have stood up for yourself and for the truth infront of your family and infront of the abuser himself takes guts and you did it!! wow, wow and wow!!!!!!!

I am so sorry to hear your dad also hurt your 1/ 2 sister, but I am so happy for her that her letter has named and shamed him for what he did to her also!!

Your strength and how you handled this has really made me smile for you and I am so pleased!

xxx

yeah, yeah, WePow is back!!!!!!
what a strength you have it is amazing to hear about it.
thanks

sending safe hugs
ps have a great session with t tomorrow!

[Sannah]

You have healed so much!

[WePow]

Went to see my T today. I was glad to see him. There is a ton of internal pain around my family issues. But my T is there for me. I am so happy about that part.