[laceylu]

I went into session feeling fine and left with a hole in my heart. I do not see her for 16 days and I feel lost. I usually see her every week but not able to get appointment at all next week. She is so smart and I am so shocked. I can not accept this and I did not secure permission to contact her outside of session. How can a T drop a bomb in your lap and give you no resources for the grief? I journaled today and remembered something all by myself with no support. I will call pdoc to get some more meds, she said I can call her for that. T said I had DID. She also said trigger words and I have been upset since yesterday. I do not feel anything like DID. I feel as if I am walking thru deep cold water.

She said I did not have to say thank-you, but I did anyway
NOW I have many many questions, esp a second opinion and a formal evaluation and a treatment plan, but I will have to wait 16 days. I do not have cancer, but I still have concerns. To me this is life-changing. I want answers. Thanks for reading.

[Wren_]

(((((((((Laceylu)))))))))) I don't see how you can be left with that on your own for 16 days; please call back tomorrow and say you need to get an appointment and can't be left alone with this news. As far as the diagnosis ... IF it is real it's been there most of your life so you haven't suddenly "got" something which is the way it can feel; but you can start to learn ways to cope and deal with things. I know it's totally scary and unsettling though, I went through being diagnosed about eight years ago and it was so difficult especially when there is so much information out there that can be confusing and contradictory. A second opinion and formal evaluation would both be good things to seek; although your T is smart, often there can be other things going on that might present themselves in ways a T might jump to conclusions without being really sure. If your T really can't see you next week; could you ask for a referral to get a second opinon?

Oh gosh, I'm SO sorry. This sounds so hard. I really really hope you can get in quickly.

[laceylu]

no appointment but i think i can handle it, will be be distracted with work and stuff-they said no appointment available, very tight on mental health care in my area. at least i do not feel as if i am having a heart attack today. i was kind of relieved earlier today because my life made sense. thanks to all

[laceylu]

this goes with my latest post

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by laceylu

I went into session feeling fine and left with a hole in my heart. I do not see her for 16 days and I feel lost.

I hate it when that happens. Why can't T leave me on a high? Especially before a break.