Told T about a fantasy I've always had, but to afraid before this week to say it. I told her I often wish I was a fly on her wall, overlooking her life away from our session.
I couldn't understand why, I fished around for a while, throwwing out random reasons why, from wanting to catch her out (nope that didn't feel right) to wanting to see if there's another aspect of who she is that I am not getting, (no that didn't feel right), then I said, "its like I want to know stuff about you, like, what teabags you use", then I looked at T and added "but that's just an example coz I don't like tea". With that T couldn't contain her laughter, nor I lol, she eventually said, I think its a way of feeling close to me. That was it, I looked at her and pointed directly and saidn "yeah that's it". I sat with that for a while, it felt good, having words and understanding to put with the desires.
I sat quite and then begun to grin. T asked what was I smiling about? I replied "I think its cool the way we worked that out, we could ne like therapist and client and work **** out and that" lol, she laughed again. It was a good few moments together, we seemed to be really at ease in others company, both sat back, legs stretched out, just kinda chewing the breeze. But of course there was a seriousness here too, with the fly.

[ECHOES]

What a nice session. I love moments like the ones you describe

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by earthmamma

Told T about a fantasy I've always had, but to afraid before this week to say it. I told her I often wish I was a fly on her wall, overlooking her life away from our session.

For years I wanted to know more about T. It seems so unnatural to be intimate with someone you know nothing about. Also, why is she holding out on me? I hate unanswered questions and not knowing.

I know her name, her address, her age, her pre-psych career, what triggered HER therapy, her husband's name and occupation, how many children she has and a couple of anecdotes. That's all after eight years. And she wouldn't have told me anything about her husband if I hadn't already guessed.

But in a good session, when our souls touch, the world outside just doesn't matter.