[kasva]

hi.....i was walking dogs today(my self employment part time business) and i saw an incident. this incident was most definitely child abuse. in fact when i called child services to report it they said i should have called the police immediately. I couldn't stop it, i was pretty far away and it happened pretty quickly.
anyways i was handling it okay with t who i saw this afternoon. But now as night is settling in, i'm starting to freak out. i feel guilty for not calling the police and the incident is something similar that happened to me as a child. i'm just sitting crying and freaking out.
i'm allowed to call my t and if i did call her she would call me early tomorrow morning. i'm just not sure this warrants calling t. i'm trying to not call her very often and i don't know if calling her is being too dependent on her.
do you think this is a good enough reason to call t?........thank you for any help with this decision.......kasva

[roads]

I think you ought to call. You talked about it with her, but it's coming back now--sounds like even worse as the implications sink in. Obviously you didn't deal with it thoroughly today.

Call. I can't believe she'd say your calling would be a mistake.

[kaliope]

when i am triggered i tend to freak out at night. the emotions get high and out of control. the situation keeps replaying in my mind. i become an emotional wreck. i will not be able to sleep. i dont call T often, but 95% of my calls to him happen about 1am. its when all my self soothing tactics have failed. once i have called and left the message, its gone. i feel much better. i have left it in the hands of T and I can sleep. Leaving these messages is an agreed upon coping tool.

Definately call T, she would not want you experiencing this distress aalone. you are not being needy leaving a voicemail.

[nicoleb2]

Definitely call your T. Better to have help and not need it when t calls back than to not call t and need help!

[kasva]

i dont know why im so nervous about calling her. the t that would get back to me is a different t than the one i saw today. ( i have a t and a psychiatrist t ). im gonna take your guys advice...thank you all. maybe im nervous because im gonna say what i saw....idk..............................ty again...kasva

[nicoleb2]

kasva - sometimes it can be hard to give in and make the call. I know it has been for me. I'm glad you decided to

[kasva]

well i called my psychiatrist t and left a message. i wasn't able to say much but she should call me in the am then i can talk better. i wish i could sleep.........kasva....thank you nicole it was really hard to call.