confusing session..can anyone relate?

So today I saw my T and it was all and all, a very confusing and overwhelming time. I hadn't seen him in over two weeks, and for those two weeks I was so relieved to not have to see him. Not because I don't like him, it's just easier to not deal with things. Actually, when he told me he was going to be gone I immediately thought, "Oh thank, GOD." Bit of a side note, but has anyone else ever felt like that? Just relieved that you don't have to go to therapy?

OKAY. Back to my main point..so the session today was intense and uncomfortable, but in a lot of ways good. Intense and uncomfortable because this was the first time we actually talked nonstop about heavy issues, but good because I felt like he genuinely cared. But here's my issue now: He suggested a multitude of different options for me, and one was more intense treatment that he can't offer. THAT threw me. Really threw me. I really don't think I need more care and then I felt like he didn't want me as a client or that I screwed things up, or said too much, etc. The session ended fine, though. I'm going to start meeting with him twice a week now, which he normally doesn't do, sooo I think he still likes me. Haha, gosh I don't know. Now that I've been thinking about the session for awhile, I'm just confused. I guess that's the only was to describe it. Confused on the homework he wants me to do; confused on if he still wants me as a client; confused about if I'm doing the right thing by going..AH. Anyone else ever get overwhelmed with thoughts like that?

I would say.. all the time. Everytime I get out of session, I'm confused. I can't seem to remember clearly what happened and what he told be, etc. And I'm not relieve when t takes a week off but everytime, it was really good for me at the end to have a break to all this emotionnal stuff going on in there.

And oh, human mind! Can make us think anything! I have no doubt your t still want to work with you; why would he offer you twice a week, add that he doesn't do it normally! I talk about my oh so human mind before in another post... I explained that, once, my t told me that I didn't need him to live, that he had no doubt I could easily live by myself and be happy (he was answering to me telling him I felt dependant on him). I felt good at first but by the time I got home, I was sure it meant he wanted to terminate me and that he didn't enjoy working with me... Your t suggested a lot of stuff, includind seeing someone else because he really care about you; he wants to make sure you can think about EVERY options available, which is great.

I hope you feel less confused soon!
take care
faith

I usually say it OUT LOUD - it slips out before I can even stop it, and he gets all hurt and offended. Hey, it's not like he's taking me with him on vacation to Paris - THEN I might be smiley about it!

He suggested all the things he did because he wants to help you. By suggesting seeing someone else for more intensive therapy, he was admitting that perhaps he could not help you. That is honorable on his part. Offering more sessions per week when he doesn't normally do that is also a very good sign he wants nothing more than to help you! These are all good things. It sounds like you have a very good T!

If this happened to me (suggestion of specialist treatment elsewehere), I would react "No way! I want to stay with you!".

My T did this EXACT same thing in the beginning. He used to ask me at the start of each session "do you need something more than our therapy?" finally one day I snapped and told him to stop saying it cause it made me feel hopeless... like he couldn't help me or something. He told me that he was just making sure that I was cared for, and that he wasn't going to ditch me but add more options to my treatment. Right after that he started me up at 2x a week. I am sure the SAME thing is going on with you and your therapist. It was very confusing for me until, he directly told me why he was asking me that every single week. He knew that one session a week wasn't enough for my issues. He knew I needed more, even though every week I would get scared and say no because I thought he was going to send me away or something.

It is your therapy and totally up to you! Sounds like you have a great T. Choose what you want to do at this time (sounds like you did) and keep moving forward/doing well!

Thanks for all of your responses!! They made me feel a bit better about it all.