[delicatefade26]

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That sounds so hard to deal with, I'm sorry. It sounds like you're having a bit of a panic attack right now. Can you get out of the room? Out of the house? Can you go do something that might be calming like take a bath or even a shower? Or go read a book? Anything to change your environment a little bit right now.

[delicatefade26]

Well I'm staying with them today because I'm sick...and I feel better right now-I think because he went back to bed...my heart is still pounding...but it's going to be ok...I'm going to lock my door tonight though (I know that's not necessary but I guess its out of old fears) thank you SarahMichelle

When I have a reaction like that (PTSD)... I have to remind myself that it is the present now and I am an adult... that what I'm feeling is a reaction to the past... it is not happening now.. I look around the room and make myself be aware of the surroundings...to notice things that help me realize it is today...

But truely it is upsetting when it happens... I hope you find a way to calm yourself and to get in a better place..

[Chopin99]

When I have a panic attack, I pace back and forth, try to breathe deeply and slowly, and tell myself over and over again, "I'm having a panic attack, it will not last forever, I will be okay."

I'm sorry you are experiencing this delicate.

[unaluna]

Alice Miller writes these books, one is called The Body Remembers. My mother wrote me a letter telling me the condo across the hall from her is available. Talking to T about it, I felt violated, I told him I felt raped, I was trying to curl up like a leaf in the chair, hide behind my puppet. I feel safe with T, not with mother. it was really weird, I was like, where did that come from?

[growlycat]

Write out what you are feeling. You can always share with your T next time.

Anxiety attacks feel awful. I agree if you could stay at a friend's house/change location it could break what's triggering you. Hugs!

[delicatefade26]

I ended up emailing T...telling him that I didn't need a response but that I had to get out that I was triggered about something-and then said that I hope I will be able to talk about it on Monday and hope it doesn't snow so bad I can't make it...

I feel like I'm overreacting and I feel ridiculous-yeah it was probably not the greatest that they fought like that-but nothing bad happened...ugg

[growlycat]

You don't have to downplay your past experience--it isn't overreacting, your anxiety was triggered by something real--maybe a description from the book hit home?

Glad to hear you emailed your T. Do you know his policy on between session contact? If he says it's ok to call him, he means it.

My first T said she wanted me to call between sessions and I didn't believe her. Not calling her caused way more problems than a simple message would have done!

I'm glad you emailed your T. I hope you're feeling better.