[Wren_]

The last week or so I've been experiencing some strange things including a few hallucinations which hasn't happened for ages. When it did happen before I started trying to tell sT because I was terrified of the hallucinations and what it could mean, but telling him didn't go well. He wanted to follow a different direction at the time; I thought this was more important and it ended badly and took time to get past and we never did discuss it properly. Now that it's happening again the fear is also returning but I don't want to upset things the way it did by me asking before... what do I do? I'm not on any medication that would cause this so I don't know what is

[roads]

Yes, you need to bring it up again. Tell him, though, that you were not happy with the course of the discussion the last time you brought this up and need his help to avoid being afraid to discuss this with him.

This is important, tigergirl. I'm pretty sure you recognize this, & that's a very good sign of your being able to look out for yourself.

[bazza12]

Definitely bring it up again. This has already happened before, so you should really tell your T again. Maybe tell your T beforehand that you don't know how to go about all of this and you're confused (and so on) and go from there? Hoping it goes better for you

Yes, tell him. Eventhough it didn't go well last time, he needs to hear what's happening to you. If he doesn't seem to hear it, yell!! You're important!

[Perna]

I would look at the hallucinations and how they ended last time? Anything we don't understand is going to be scary but it sounds like you are afraid of the fear? Think about your own history and how they played out last time and imagine what you might like for this time, how your T might be able to help you? I bet last time he only got part of the picture, got himself sidetracked by the hallucinations rather than your fear? Start with your fear, instead, maybe? Talk about dealing with your fear (instead of "Hey, I'm hallucinating here! What do I do?"). I would definitely bring it up though but have a bit of a script you want to follow so you and he don't get sidetracked.

[Wren_]

Thanks roadie, bazza, calista+12 and perna

Afer writing earlier i watched a tv show and of all things the character had hallucinations caused by a brain tumor

Last time he didnt address the fear or hallucinations really instead we addressed the changing directions and my melt down at not being able to tell him this

like you are afraid of the fear?

yes

[crazycanbegood]

I am with all those who posted above! I do hope you feel better.

[learning1]

Wow, it seems really weird to me that he wouldn't address hallucinations! I wasn't sure what you meant by he addressed "changing directions". Or maybe you mean when you talked to him about being upset later, the two of you talked about you being upset because he changed the topic, rather than because he didn't address the hallucinations? Anyway, hallucinations are really important to talk about, and I'd try another doctor if your t isn't getting it.

[critterlady]

I'd definitely bring it up again with him. It seems odd to me that he didn't address it the first time.

My general rule is that if I'm wondering whether or not to tell my therapist something, I tell him. I trust him to know what's significant and what isn't.