[WantingtoHeal]

She brought it up to me yesterday and asked how I felt about it, but I didn't respond. Then, she said she wasn't sure if it was what I needed or not. So, I have no idea what to think. This is the 3rd time it's been brought up in the past few weeks and then they seem to change their minds as if they think it's not a good idea. The pdoc says he wants to use it only as a last resort. It's like they're having a conversation in their minds in front of me and I'm just sitting there. I SI in several places yesterday and that's what started the latest discussion. I am too afraid to even make a decision because of how much they are wavering on their part. I don't get it.

[lostmyway21]

My T brought up hospitalization once when I was at a particularly bad point. I took it as he was trying to get rid of me, and I let him know that. We were able to work through it. In reality he only being a responsible T and making sure I was properly cared for. We were able to manage without hospitalization. Just don't take it personally that's something my T drilled into my head when I was really upset that he brought it up. My T has never recommended it because of SI though, he never reacts to it all unless we are talking about ways to cope.

[WantingtoHeal]

Both my counselor and pdoc work at the hospital - I go there for therapy, so I didn't really take it as them getting rid of me. I think they see SI as a form of self injury and that it requires hospitalization. I'm also not sleeping much and they keep asking me if I'm taking my meds, which I am. So they maybe want to ensure I'm taking my meds. I just don't get what their hesitations would be. I'm not totally opposed to going if it would help me. Just concerned about what their hesitations are.

[lostmyway21]

Originally Posted by WantingtoHeal

Both my counselor and pdoc work at the hospital - I go there for therapy, so I didn't really take it as them getting rid of me. I think they see SI as a form of self injury and that it requires hospitalization. I'm also not sleeping much and they keep asking me if I'm taking my meds, which I am. So they maybe want to ensure I'm taking my meds. I just don't get what their hesitations would be. I'm not totally opposed to going if it would help me. Just concerned about what their hesitations are.

There was a time when my pdoc and T were both on the same page about it, but we're hesitant because I down right refused. Does yours know that you are willing to go if it would benefit you and they think it was the right thing for you? I convinced mine I could be monitored outpatient, and I was. If they know your willing to go inpatient maybe they wouldn't be hesitant?

Does that hospital have a program specifically for people who SI? If that is the case, I can see how that might be helpful. If not, the one advantage I can see of hospitalization is that they can make quick, more aggressive adjustments to medications in order to speed up your healing. Out-patient, they have to go much slower on med changes. Are they seeing you as possibly suicidal? That would certainly lead them in that direction.

[WantingtoHeal]

I will ask them some questions on my next appt, hopefully, if I get the courage. I don't think they have a program for SI. They may see me as suicidal. Not sure. I'll have to ask them. Thanks so much for responses.