[jaxter23]

So a lot has been going on lately and I don't really have anyone around these days. My friends at home aren't very supportive and my friends that I can just talk to and get my mind off things are all on spring break. I think I just need a friend or someone to talk to these days. My T makes me e-mail her everyday because she knows I'm having a hard time and knows writing/"talking" about it helps me esp when I get support and feedback, which she doesn't have time to offer.

Long story short here is what's going on. My parents are very hard on me. My mom claims her house as her own, so I have no place to call my own because she barges in my room and does whatever she wants. My dad yells at me every chance he gets or tells me how I should be living. They don't know I have BPII. I started a new job a month ago and it is very stressful and high paced, but I like having something to do. As I said before I have BPII. I just went off my meds because they were causing major blurry vision and that doesn't go well with very long workdays. I have been super anxious lately and agitated. I don't know if its because of the meds. T has talked about anxiety meds because I'm so wound up. Anyone have suggestions to reduce anxiety?

Besides that I really need a friend because this Saturday is a hard day for me. It will be 10 years since a huge storm at our house and my dad ending up paralyzed. I'm having a hard time coping with the fact that its 10 years since our lives changed forever. I feel weird putting this stuff out here like this, but I just really need to feel like someone cares. I'm so freaking down right now I'm sorry

jaxter, just the thought of living with my parents is enough to make my heart race and sweat break out all over my forehead. My heart goes out to you.

[SoupDragon]

Hi jaxter

I am sorry you family experienced something that as you say, changed your lives so drastically. I guess it must be tough on all of you for different reasons?

You might find it helpful to visit the anxiety forum on here - this might be a useful link too http://counselling.anu.edu.au/brochu...ent-techniques

I hope tomorrow passes quickly for you - don't forget to post on here if you are finding things tough.

Soup