Just need to be noticed maybe. Acknowledged. With my T gone AGAIN, no onelistens to me or notices me. Having a tough time. And my husband, who is a great therapist, isnt a listener at home. Hes also bipolar and has big mood swings. Hes in " ignore you" mode again and nothing i do at home is right. Last night we were crying over missing our T and our dog that died recently. He didnt care. Theres a lot of grief in my life right now- lost dreams, dashed hopes. I wish i could talk to my T.
I am so tired of being lonely.

Thanks for reading.

[yang0868]

Originally Posted by SarahMichelle

Just need to be noticed maybe. Acknowledged. With my T gone AGAIN, no onelistens to me or notices me. Having a tough time. And my husband, who is a great therapist, isnt a listener at home. Hes also bipolar and has big mood swings. Hes in " ignore you" mode again and nothing i do at home is right. Last night we were crying over missing our T and our dog that died recently. He didnt care. Theres a lot of grief in my life right now- lost dreams, dashed hopes. I wish i could talk to my T.
I am so tired of being lonely.

Thanks for reading.

I'm feeling like this lately as well. You are always welcome to PM me. I'm a good listener. I'm sorry about your recent lost.

[healed84]

What a terrible feeling to have.. I hope things get better for you. Continue to write it all out here, we are all here willing to read, give input, and just be here for you. (((hugs)))

I am so sorry you are going through this, we are all here if you wanna type about it.

[WikidPissah]

I notice you Sarah...when you post, when you help others or when you need help. I notice. Sorry it's bad right now.

[peaches100]

SarahMichelle,

I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time right now. I can just imagine how difficult it has been for you with your t gone! Bless your heart, you just keep hanging in there.

My h is bipolar also, so i understand some of the challenges you're facing. When both spouses deal with mental/emotional health issues, they can't always be there to support/listen to one another. Thankfully, most of the time, my h and I aren't both struggling at a low point at the same time. But sometimes, it happens. Maybe your h is not doing so well himself right now and is having to marshall his resources to deal with his own stuff. I know it's not easy though, when you are needing support!

Keep posting on the forum if you need to. You can get the support you need here.

[charo224488]

Originally Posted by SarahMichelle

Just need to be noticed maybe. Acknowledged. With my T gone AGAIN, no onelistens to me or notices me. Having a tough time. And my husband, who is a great therapist, isnt a listener at home. Hes also bipolar and has big mood swings. Hes in " ignore you" mode again and nothing i do at home is right. Last night we were crying over missing our T and our dog that died recently. He didnt care. Theres a lot of grief in my life right now- lost dreams, dashed hopes. I wish i could talk to my T.
I am so tired of being lonely.

Thanks for reading.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your dog- I know how heartbreaking it is to lose your beloved pet. Does your therapist have someone you can call when they are not available? If not, you should call a friend or family member. If the people that love you know how you feel (and you should tell them), they would want to help. Best of luck to you today.

Thank you.
I appreciate these kind words.
Some days ate just tough.

So sorry Sarah. I see you. You are strong and you will get through T being away.

[rainbow8]

I'm sorry, SarahMichelle. I always wondered how you could manage with your T away for so long the first time. But you did!!! I admire you very much. You're a very strong, determined person. It's crummy that your H, a T, can't be of support to you now. We're here, supporting you though!!! My H wasn't compassionate at all when I told him about my T going away. He didn't say one nice word to me about my pain. I hope your T comes back soon like she said she would, this time. I'm sorry about your dog, too.

What always amazes me, SaraMichelle, is your willingness to reach out to others when you are struggling yourself. You are a true inspiration to the rest of us. I sincerely hope that you take some solice from the care and support everyone here on PC feels toward you. Take care and know that we hope that your therapist is able to return quickly!

Thank you so much for the kind words.
I dont have a lot to say about all this stuff, just feeling alone.
Got an email from my T & shes ok, got there safe last week. Shes sick but as soon as she can talk she will call me.
I just miss her. Miss talking. I hang out with preschoolers for 9 hours a day. Sometimes i get tired of taking care of everyone around me.
Sometimes i just need my T.

Everyones encouraging words help me so much.

[rockymtngal]

Hi Sarah, I never write to you because I never know what to say. Your strength in waiting out time to see your T is so admirable. I don't know how you do it. It almost seems like a tease I bet-to have her back, have a couple of sessions, and then she's up and gone again. My heart goes out to you.

Are you watching T's dog this time too?

Yep i still have her dog-- there was never even time to take him home again during her brief time back. so hes been at my house since july, which has been forever. He thinks hes part of our family now. He never leaves my side at home. Thankfully he gets along well with our dogs.

Btw i dont FEEL strong in all this waiting... I feel like a stressed out wimp but i am glad people think i seem strong.

I am doing better today. A bit. My job is rather frustrating right now. It makes me want to just be able to go hang out w/ my T, someone who is such a good listener and comforting to be around.
Just not feeling the love from my preschoolers today

As someone who works in an educational setting for special needs children, I truly understand the current stresses and demands on classroom teachers who are providing the support and guidance that your children need. I know how difficult things can be when you are expected to be all caring and supportive when you, yourself, are struggling emotionally. Your posts tell me that you are a loving and caring teacher. I get it that you find solice and comfort in what you are able to provide your students. I wish your therapist was there to give you what you give to the children you work with on a daily basis.

Hang in there, SaraMichelle, I sincerely hope that your therapist is able to return soon! Please know that many of us in the public sector do not realize or truly understand or know on a very real level how much you and other teachers GIVE to you special needs students. Take care of you, because if you're not in a good place, they will miss your care and concern.

Thank you so much, Jaybird.
My job has been pretty frustrating the past couple of weeks, but its because we're short a teacher (out for surgery) so I had to take on her students as well as my own. But its also SOOOOO much better than when I taught special ed in public school for years and years. I just forget that sometimes like today!! Two of my hardest kids are supposed to be leaving in 2 weeks, so things should get easier then.
And my T should be home by the end of next week.