Was talking about talking with T today. Told her how after I've let myself talk it feels like I talked to much which leaves me feeling torn up inside. Often tell her how I wished I could take a vowel of silence and stick to it, but alas I keep breaking it.

I know that sorta sounds funny, but it's true.

[pegasus]

(((((((((( earthmama ))))))))))

And as a child were you allowed to speak? Keep talking, you can say what you want now, especially in therapy...

No never stopPed from talkIng. But think what I said was twisted and/or denied. But don't know if that's the connection.

[Silent_tsol]

I feel this way too even though I know realistically I haven't said all that much. Just feel its better if im quiet - safer that way (((earth)))

Edit: also want to add, that I don't remember ever not being allowed to talk when I was young either but I know I was always very quiet. I have no connection for why I feel that way

[WikidPissah]

wow...I always thought talking would be a very positive experience....I sit in there and say "um, gah, ah...." I sound like a toddler. lol.

I guess there is probably an in between place that would be preferential.