Sorry soup I just had too

[sconnie892]

This is where I am at right now. Overall I like my t, but I am really upset about our last session. It's a mixture of love/hate at the moment. But that seems to be how I usually feel about t anyway...

[WikidPissah]

Funny EM.

I think I fit in perfectly here.

Actually, I texted my T yesterday with an "I'm sorry I bailed, can I please change my mind". He never responded, but I am absolutely fine with that, kind of funny. I know in my heart that he either didn't receive the text or he is away, just that simple. I know that he would have responded otherwise. So I guess I trust him. Of course I am a little disappointed, and I would have liked to have heard from him, but it isn't sending me into a spin.

[stopdog]

It is not the therapist so much for me, she is just some stranger sitting there not doing anything. Really other than her refusal to explain anything she is not that big of a deal, but more therapy itself where I have frustration. So I posted here.

[SpiritRunner]

I could fit in here, too, even though I posted under the 'love my T' thread, too.
Technically, I don't have an 'official' T to either love or hate, so how I could I really say I love or hate my T .... but since I do still have contact with T2 from time to time, perhaps that counts enough!
I got really angry with her once, but other than that, I never hated her, but when I was seeing her, never felt like I loved her at all either. I did like her, her humor and her style, and I did trust her, though, over the course of time. But I did always look forward to sessions, because they always tickled my mind, they were productive and profitable, she challenged me and pushed me. Not always fun or comfortable (though we did banter and laugh sometimes) but always helpful and useful.
Funny that I would feel like I have a sort of love for her now ... but like I say, I think it's like a fond regard and respect with gratitude mixed in ... but then, I also wonder if it's just that I love conversation with her and not HER precisely! So yeah, I posted here, too.

I sort of feel like my sentiments for my T belong here too. Yes, I do have a love for my T, but at least at this moment it isn't a put him on a pedastal, head over heels, gaga for him kind of thing.

And I don't think I've ever felt hate for him. To me, hate is such a strong word. I generally don't go there. I tend to save hate for murderers, rapists, racists, instigators of genocide, etc. Fortunately, T doesn't fit those categories.

Generally what I feel is a great appreciation and respect for him, and that's a pretty steady place for me. I appreciate his time and attention and deep care which has been extensive over the years. I appreciate and respect his skills. I appreciate and respect his honesty. I appreciate our good rapport with each other. Stuff like that. All good, secure, comfortable stuff for me I guess.

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by earthmamma

Sorry soup I just had too

- definitely there are times that I am here when thinking about my T - the hate / love things generally lasts for short periods as something overwhelming - being here in the middle always feel more comfortable.