[delicatefade26]

I have done awesome this entire week with feeling good-not emailing T with drama (I actually haven't emailed him at all this week-which is a first in a year!!) and I was doing okay with this Father's Day thing...but I just looked at the postsecret website-and lost it...and I have the strongest desire for T-to talk to him-to email him...but I've done sooo good-I don't want to mess it up! I see him Monday evening-but right now that feels forever away : (
I don't like this holiday...bleh
should I email or just suck it up?

[mazing]

Sorry to hear you are struggling Can you maybe try writing him a letter and then giving it to him on Monday? That way you can still get it all out, knowing that he will be able to read it and understand where you are at but you don't have to email him if you are not completely comfortable doing so.

And congratulations for managing on your own for the week! I know how hard it can be and it really is something that should be celebrated.

[delicatefade26]

Yea I decided to write about it and I did my "assignment" drawing and that felt great!! And thanks about the acknowledgement of the no emails for the week! I can't believe I did it : )
I'm just wondering if T noticed or will say anything?
Anyways thanks again and Mon will be here soon...ugg!

[Fran61]

Hum, might you consider writing down your feelings, as you're feeling them. Then, when the Holiday is past .. it might all make more sense for you. This is just a thought, as it is what I often do.
Why don't you like the Holiday?
(((Hugs))))

[confuseduk]

Hi delicate, Father's day is painful for me also, but you should be very proud of your achievement this week I'm with catgoesmeow, maybe you could e-mail him but not send it? Or post on here? Have you got any e-mails or voicemails from T that could get you through today? There is nothing wrong with contacting T if you really need to but I hear you when you say you don't want to do that after doing so well this week. Don't beat yourself up and try to keep busy we're here

[dolphingirl]

I kind of forgot that Sunday was Father's Day until I was at work Thursday listening to the radio. I started to loose it, but not completely. I just wanted Father's Day and everything around it to disappear. I realized that what ever choice I made, I would still have to explain a little to some one. If I went to church where I lived, they would ask why I didn't go home. If I go home they would think it was for Father's Day, which he isn't there anyway and I wouldn't go home just to see him if he was there. If I go to church they'll say something about Father's Day and if I don't go, I'll have to come up with a reason as to why. I'll have to suck it up and attempt to deal with it in some way.

[sconnie892]

Delicate.
Sorry you are struggling. I was doing ok with today too until the entire sermon at church was about Father's Day.

we pretty much block this day out as much as possible except for cores son celebrating it with his dad. sorry its so hard for you but kudos for going an entire week with no emailing thats awesome♥

I was doing fairly well until Friday. 3 different pain-makers came up and I felt teary eyed since then. (By painmakers i guess i mean triggers) two of them have to do with family: It hurts tremendously that my father had to make a choice so he could live in peace withmyawful mother and queen bee sister so to appease them he shut me out of his life. They are both horrible people and in order for him to have peace at home and to see his grandchildren he sacrificed our relationship. It crushes me on days like today. I really love and respect my father so i accept his decision. But i am not happy about it at all

[Mike_J]

My father chose my stepmother over his children. As a parent I just can't see doing that, I'm a peaceful guy, but nothing would get me to trade a relationship with my daughter just to make life easier for myself.

It's his loss, and one that will haunt him forever.. I know my dad now deeply regrets his decision but it's too late for him.

I try to forget mother and fathers day, what about adult child who survived day?