Just stopping by...

I would love to read the threads but, I fear they'd be too triggering. I am so vunerable at the moment. I cannot imagine updating any of my PC buddies on my life-in length- thus far because soo soo much has went on. In brief, I was forced to move back home due to illness and will hopefully be able to return to school this fall. Moving home, also included leaving my current therapist behind. Which, I sort of wanted too leave therapy anyway but, it seems I feel I have a hard time functioning without meeting with someone once a week! Is that a flaw? This all started a year and a half ago when I was diagnosed with clinical depression. And now that my depression is more mild or less severe- I still feel in my hearts of hearts-a little unstable. Like, a lot of spacing out cus' so much 'chatter' is going on-you know, when people just worry about things non-stop. I miss my therapist- with the same-equal passion of not ever going back again. I wonder if it is possible for a therapist to care too much!? like, her urgency to have me stay in therapy even when I was going to take a break made me a tad unconfortable. Anyways, I emailed her to say it wouldn't make sense to email anymore since we're "taking a break" and I am just seeing her whenever I'm in the area where I've attended school. Other then that, I'm just at home. Battling my depression- and trying to find smiles, laughs, creative moments, companionship in such a busy-gray area Life.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Jazzy

((((jazzy)))) It is so good to hear from you. I have wondered how you were doing. Sounds like times are tough, so I will just send you a hug and tell you to post what you want when you want to. The threads can be really triggering at times for me as well.

You may want to leave your therapy sessions surrounding your school schedule. Remember it's about you so it's supposed to fit your schedule, even if it's email, computer sessions, or face to face. Sorry about the depression thing. Sounds wrong to say but I recently dated a guy that was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and I feel like I understand the illness much better than I did before. Keep your head up. Try to laugh really hard at least once a day, and have one good hug a day from anyone who will give it.