[Thornsandroses]

My T has a family emergency, and will not be in all week. I usually go to therapy twice a week, (on Tuesdays and Friday's) and it just so happens, last Friday's appointment was very intense to say the least....So now, I am completely lost without her.

In my heart I understand why she will not be available to me, and that she needs to be with her family right now.....(a family member is in an out of town hospital) but my mind is screaming why, why, why????

I am spiraling down really fast. I have absolutely no way to contact her, because she can only access her email, at work. (I emailed her to let her know I was praying for her family, and that I missed her.) But she won't see it till she gets back in the office.

When the receptionist called to cancel yesterday's and Fridays' appointments. I was told she may not be back till next Wednesday (which means another appointment cancelled) .....I don't think I can make it that long without her....I have abandoment issues....

I have already used my healthy (I called my sort of standby therapist that works in the medical clinic I go to, but he has no openings this week) .....and some unhealthy behaviors, (It's best not to go into those) to get through, but I am going down hill fast....

I was not at all prepared for this, if I was, I would like to believe that I would be coping better right now, because she would have worked with me in preparation for this.....

[missbelle]

We are ALL here for you.........Just post...we can help!!!!!!!!!!!!

[granite1]

keep posting here i think we all know what this is like.i have been not able to see my T lately and know what you are going through .hang in there and hang with us

Awe, so sorry this is happening to you! (hugs) is there anything you can do to keep your mind off your t being unavailable, like meeting friends, playing sport, hobbies??? Taking your mind off this will work wonders till you see her again and you can tell her that you were able to cope and she will be so proud on you! X

[pbutton]

What coping skills would your T suggest that you use?

[Nightlight]

You're not alone. I'm without this week too. I cut back due to finances and this is the second week I've missed an appointment as I'm going once fortnightly now. I'm not coping at all. It was such a fast downwards spiral and it doesn't even feel like T is there to help me though it. It is really hard. I totally get it. Sorry you're going through the same thing this week. Hang in there!

[taylor43]

(((((((((((Hugs)))))))) My T is going away on vacation in 2 weeks so i do not get to see her til Aug. 13th so i can relate to you. ((((((((((((Hugs)))))))

[ListenMoreTalkLess]

I realize you know intellectually that she hasn't abandoned you, but it still feels that way.

Can you talk (or write to yourself) a little bit about what you would want to say to her if she were here?

You can make it until she gets back. Are there other people you can reach out to for support? Ask a friend to come over for tea? Go out for coffee? Take a yoga class, go to a movie, walk in the park?

[Thornsandroses]

Just wanted to update on how I feeling. I feel kinda numb inside. I feel like I have already missed 2 appts. (I usually see my T on Tuesdays and Friday's but she switch it to Wed. and Friday this week) So Yesterday and today during my therapy time, I just felt hallow, and then numb.... then realy down, I have been sleeping a lot yesterday and today.

I also have social anxiety disorder so the only times I actually go out of my house during the week is to therapy. Is it only Wednesday???? ARG

I wish she would call me on her cell and just block her number to keep it private. It also depresses me that I think this is all about me....when I am sure she is have a very long rough week also. I'm sorry T....