[geez]

I got a call from T1 today. I called her over the weekend and left a message to see about getting a possible appointment or to talk about my issue with T2 and tardiness.

When she called me she wanted to know what was going on so I gave her the readers digest version. She gave me some useful advice (much of what I've read in the responses to my post). It was like I was in her office and a day hadn't passed since we last talked. I then felt better about things (I have a plan of action for T2 on Thursday) and I will see how things go this Thursday.

T1 then asked me how I was as she hasn't seen me around for a while (we live in a small town and ironically when I'm out biking or running I see her but she doesn't seem to know it's me with all the gear on etc..). I told her I was running my first marathon this November with a few other local ladies and it's their first marathon as well. I also told her I'm running my second half marathon this September. She said in a very genuine tone: "I am soooo proud of you".

After my phone call I had to run an errand and while I was driving I started to cry. Crying for the love and caring I felt from T. I hope and wish everyone has that feeling at one point in their life from someone. Especially those such as myself who never had that feeling as a child.

Even though T1 isn't my T these days she will always be special to me and I feel that she always has my back. I feel like I can always call her like I did most recently. I look up to her. She's like a mom to me. The mom I never had. I love her so much.

I feel so lucky and I wish everyone finds that T they connect with and feel like they are 100% on their side and has there back.

[stopdog]

I am glad you are feeling better.

[rainbow8]

I can hear your happiness in your post, geez!! It makes me wonder once again why you can't continue to see T1. I know you had good reasons to stop, but the way you feel about her is so special that maybe you should reconsider going back to her?

Your post is making me cry too. My T is that way too. When I feel sad about her not being my friend or anyone else I want her to be, I know I'm grateful that she's my T. Yes, it's such a good feeling, and I'm glad she's helping you with T2. Good luck on Thursday!

[geez]

Originally Posted by rainbow8

I can hear your happiness in your post, geez!! It makes me wonder once again why you can't continue to see T1. I know you had good reasons to stop, but the way you feel about her is so special that maybe you should reconsider going back to her?

Your post is making me cry too. My T is that way too. When I feel sad about her not being my friend or anyone else I want her to be, I know I'm grateful that she's my T. Yes, it's such a good feeling, and I'm glad she's helping you with T2. Good luck on Thursday!

I would love to go back to her but what I need is a trauma therapist right now. I wish old T could help me because she fits my style and I feel a 'connection' with her. Perhaps someday if there is something I need help with that I know she could help me with then I'll call her. For now I'll send her updates from time to time and continue to miss her.

Wish me luck with T2.

[Chopin99]

Good luck with T2, geez. It's a shame T1 can't do the trauma work with you because you seem to have an excellent rapport. I thought most T's could work with trauma clients, but I'm assuming and you know what happens when people assume...

I'm glad you had this contact with your T. I hope to be able to have something similar with my own T after I'm through. I know she said she will catch up with former clients who contact her, so I guess I will.

I'm happy for you that she was so responsive!!

[kiki86]

aw that is so lovely. i'm glad you had such a great feeling. you're right, everyone should experience that.

[AngelWolf3]

I am glad you have that! I am so happy to hear about this! And good luck in your marathon, when did you say it was again? (My short term memory is not so hot, lol)

[sunrise]

That sounds like such a great phone call with T1, geez. It's so good to still have that connection even though you are not actively seeing her for therapy.

Did what she said about T2's tardiness help you want to stay in therapy with T2? I know you were considering quitting because of T2's constant lateness. I hope she had some good suggestions on how to deal with the situation.

[geez]

Originally Posted by Wolfin3

I am glad you have that! I am so happy to hear about this! And good luck in your marathon, when did you say it was again? (My short term memory is not so hot, lol)

It's in November in Philadelphia. I will finish even if I have to crawl across the finish line

Originally Posted by sunrise

That sounds like such a great phone call with T1, geez. It's so good to still have that connection even though you are not actively seeing her for therapy.

Did what she said about T2's tardiness help you want to stay in therapy with T2? I know you were considering quitting because of T2's constant lateness. I hope she had some good suggestions on how to deal with the situation.

What she did say helped me want to stay in therapy with T2. I simply need to tell T2 I think she can help me and I want to continue therapy with her and I have a few suggestions about the time etc......

T1 was a little bit shocked or said it was 'interesting' (so did marriage T) when I told her about T's comment of 'finding another therapist' (so did my friend who is a social worker). I also told T1 that is was feeling like my therapy was really about T2 and not me She really couldn't comment as she wasn't in the room but I felt heard. T1 told me she is going on vacation next week and we chatted a little.

If things don't work out with T2 (I'm going to give her a couple appointments to see how it goes) then I need to evaluate what to do from there. My goal is to get through some things with a trauma therapist. The next closest person to me is 45 minutes away and she is an expert that other T's go to for training but her schedule is jam packed and I called her months ago and never got a call back (not sure if that was my fault or hers).

Thank you all so much for listening. I am lucky to have had T1 in my life and while I'm happy about that there is an element of sadness mixed in with that. Usually the sadness comes after the happiness. But I still consider myself lucky to have experienced happiness as painful as it can feel afterwords.