ok I'm confused tonight. This is becoming a habit. This is the third time in a row, the night before therapy, I am completely out of sorts, cranky, every little comment anyone makes and I feel like bursting into tears, what the heck is this??!?!?! I've been in a great mood all last week and most of today until this evening. Then just like the last 2 night-before's, the weirdness sets in. I don't get it.

Any thoughts?

Pre T jitters,maybe getting yourself prepared for the upcoming game, so to speak? Back in your head? Just shooting in the dark here. Stands to reason many of us have after T hangovers, one could have preT jitters. Excitement...anticipation..not knowing ?

[growlycat]

Therapy can be a painful process, even though it seems like you might be "small-talking" with your T, big changes are happening right under the surface. Every interaction can echo something from the past. Trusting someone even a little can tear you apart.

Originally Posted by LolaCabanna

Pre T jitters,maybe getting yourself prepared for the upcoming game, so to speak? Back in your head? Just shooting in the dark here. Stands to reason many of us have after T hangovers, one could have preT jitters. Excitement...anticipation..not knowing ?

'back in your head' - i never really thought of that but it makes sense!! i've been spending so much time learning to be in my whole body instead of just 'in my head' that now the other way around is odd. merits talking about tomorrow. Thanks!

[stopdog]

I start feeling sick and detached the night before, like I did when I was in grade school on Sunday night before school started again on Monday and I had to endure dealing with all those people I did not understand and who thought I was a giant weirdo.
I am sorry it starts for you the night before too. It is not fun.

[Miswimmy1]

Nerves... Take a deep breath, if u live with other ppl you could giv them a heads up about what going on, then try and do something relaxing. It could help to visualize the next day... That can ease the nerves a bit. Best of luck!

Originally Posted by growlycat

Therapy can be a painful process, even though it seems like you might be "small-talking" with your T, big changes are happening right under the surface. Every interaction can echo something from the past. Trusting someone even a little can tear you apart.

Wow that is so true!!! and kinda profound too huh. Thanks!!!

Originally Posted by stopdog

I start feeling sick and detached the night before, like I did when I was in grade school on Sunday night before school started again on Monday and I had to endure dealing with all those people I did not understand and who thought I was a giant weirdo.
I am sorry it starts for you the night before too. It is not fun.

i never did up until a couple weeks ago. omg i just - wow - i just figured it out!!! the session before this started, we were talking about work or my hubby or something i forget exactly what but i almost had something - was THIS close to some understanding or other i still don't know what - but possibly maybe - i'm afraid i'll figure it out. I bet thats it.

thanks all!