[~EnlightenMe~]

Termination plus other stuff has me SOOOOOOOOOO overwhelmed. I was in bed all day the past days, my self-hatred self destruction is ever present, and for me to call another T, wait for them to schedule, blah blah, is to stressful for me. I don't feel like I want to trust another therapist but feel like I need one to work through this. I'm tired of trying to work through this and don't want to anymore. I drank a fifth the other night in bed alone and I never drink. I passed out, and it was the best state I've been in in awhile.

[Fixated]

Sorry you are having such a hard time. Post here as much as you need. I am not aware of the situation surrounding your termination, but it doesn't sound like a mutual or natural ending. This is going to sound oddball, but if you make T appointments, they will eventually come and then you won't have to worry about making them anymore because you'll be in therapy again.

You could also try calling a help line for someone to talk to or maybe one of the chats here on PC?

I may know a little how you feel. I haven't been leaving my room much at all lately.

Wishing you all the best

[iGottaBme]

Originally Posted by Antimatter

Termination plus other stuff has me SOOOOOOOOOO overwhelmed. I was in bed all day the past days, my self-hatred self destruction is ever present, and for me to call another T, wait for them to schedule, blah blah, is to stressful for me. I don't feel like I want to trust another therapist but feel like I need one to work through this. I'm tired of trying to work through this and don't want to anymore. I drank a fifth the other night in bed alone and I never drink. I passed out, and it was the best state I've been in in awhile.

I am sorry that you are going through this. Please be gentle with yourself and not self-medicate with alcohol. Perhaps you would feel less overwhelmed if you had a new T to process the termination and aftermath. It takes awhile to get over a termination but it does get better.

[~EnlightenMe~]

Originally Posted by Fixated

Sorry you are having such a hard time. Post here as much as you need. I am not aware of the situation surrounding your termination, but it doesn't sound like a mutual or natural ending. This is going to sound oddball, but if you make T appointments, they will eventually come and then you won't have to worry about making them anymore because you'll be in therapy again.

You could also try calling a help line for someone to talk to or maybe one of the chats here on PC?

I may know a little how you feel. I haven't been leaving my room much at all lately.

Wishing you all the best

Fixated,
It wasn't a natural ending as I had hoped. I do need to make an appt. with a T, I have one T recommended so I guess I'll call her. I wish there was a psychotherapist in my area that was like Dr. Joseph Burgo, who writes a blog on here. I agree with what he practices from what he writes on here and on his website.