[adel34]

Hi Everyone,
Sorry for the delay in updating you all.
I did have my first appointment with my therapist wednesday. It was wonderful! It was great that she'd attended my intake as my support person, and so knew a lot about me so we could jump right in.
Before we even got to her room she asked how the day program was going, and I said not well and that's one of the things I wanted to talk about.
I told her the story of my hard meeting with my caseworker, and how she hadn't noticed I was crying. She was upset on my behalf that this had happened, and said it's not that hard to tell when someone's crying! I told her how complicated this is, how in ways I know the caseworker does seem to care and want to help, (offering to help me apply for medicare quickly, offering to come to the facility I'm living at to meet, offering to take me to the program and back) yet in other ways, her not seeing how upset I was then makes me hesitate to go back. I was planning on exploring other day program options over the next few weeks anyway, just to see if there's anything that's a better fit. And then if there's nothing I'd be totally willing to go back to this program and give her another chance.
Then I got an e-mail from the caseworker tuesday replying to the one I sent saying I didn't want to come back. She wanted to meet (the next day in the afternoon, she would come to where I live) to discuss what happened. I said I wanted to have my therapy session first, was still trying to figure out what I want to do and would get back to her when I knew.
While talking things through with my therapist we together came up with that I'd stick with my plan of just waiting to see what other places say. But it was just so nice to have her there to talk with.
She'll also be running a women's therapy group with a coleague, and it'll be free for me too since I'm in the youth program so I'm going to be doing that too!
She was so gentle and kind, and really wanted to connect with me. She empahsized how she wants this to be a stress free as possible place for me, because she feels like that's what I need now.
The story with contact between sessions is that she's very open with me calling or e-mailing, but the way her work is set up if she's not at her desk she can't access voicemail or e-mail. We both discussed all sides of this. How it's good because it really leaves work at work, but also there's no room for flexibility. I'm ok with it. It's not ideal, but I can tell she isn't thrilled by the situation either. She said she felt really bad when she got in this past tuesday to my voicemails, and I can tell she meant it.
So yeah, what a difference that makes! I'm so glad I found her. I already am starting to feel a good connection with her, and am hopeful she can help me.

[Miswimmy1]

That's great! Its great that u have found someone u trust and that understands u! ((((hugs))))

[Wren_]

that's wonderful the session went well and you have such a good sense of connection already

as far as crying and people noticing; i've found many times that there are people that just don't notice it at all strange though it seems

I am so happy it went so well adel34 . Connecting with a T is some kind of magic! Please keep us posted .

[adel34]

Hi Everyone,
Thanks!
Tigergirl, that's what the OT was trying to tell me, that some people just aren't sensitive like that. Hard to believe, but probably something I need to work on accepting.

[rainbow8]

I'm so glad that you like the T, Adel!! You sound a lot happier!!

[adel34]

Hi everyone,
Yeah, I think I am happier than I was last week certainly! Just knowing I can see someone every week to help me sort stuff out makes such a difference.

[mixedup_emotions]

I'm so glad that you had a good meeting with this T and that things are moving in a good direction for you! You deserve that!! (( HUGS ))

[Butterflies Are Free]

I am really glad you found someone who is sensitive and attuned to your needs. This must be a wonderful feeling and I imagine how relieved you must be!