[WePow]

I have to see my T tommorow. I don't want to go at all. My T will have his new furnature in place. And at work they are working on redesign stuff that will move me from the same desk I have been in for 10 yrs.
I hate change. Oh well.
Wish I could just not go back to see T .... ever........ but I need therapy. uggg

[Miswimmy1]

I hate change too your not alone

Glad to see you posting, but sorry you're having to deal with so much change at once. Big hugs.

[granite1]

it will be ok we pow you survived it when he moved his office even though it was really hard and i know your T is on your side and will help you deal with this also.it is a lot of change all at once

[karebear1]

Like I said before, I understand about the furniture thing- it sucks.

I'm so worried about you lately WePow. I am use to seeing you expressing yourself and posting about your T etc. and you seem so quiet now and that worries me for you. I've noticed it mostly since you seemed to have "merged" your parts. I'm wondering if for you, this was a change that was very difficult for you and if you are missing your other parts a lot? Was doing this something that you hated to do?? Were you excited in the beginning to do that and then in the end maybe realize that you changed a lot as a result and aren't liking the changes?? I hope these question aren't out of line or too nosey. If they are, please accept my sincere apology. I do not mean it to be in any way. I just worry about you and you seem so discontent to me. But. there's always the possibility that I'm wrong too and that you are just so busy that you don't know what to do with yourself.

[WePow]

Thanks you guys. I do miss you all too.
I did split again. DID really stinks. I am processing through some stuff that a locked part of me does not want to show me. I am not sure what it is all about, but it does have me exhausted at times.
I am not sure why I am so withdrawn now. It is very difficult for me to go outwards right now. Just watching the days go by.

[complic8d]

...and then you get to "waste" a whole session just on how much the furniture change upsets you? Been there. As if there weren't enough to deal with already! Another t rule for the book: no changing offices, furniture, or even pillows....grrrr.

Hope t goes ok, WePow Big Hugs!

[WikidPissah]

Sending safe hugs...I hate change as well, and all of that would set me off good.

I hope your t can help ground you, best wishes.

[rainbow8]

I don't like change either. I hope your session goes well in spite of the changes. I'm glad you posted again! You don't have to feel a certain way in order to post; you're welcome to share whether you're in a good place or withdrawn. I'm sorry you're going through hard stuff now.

[Shiny Things]

Me too! While trying to adjust to a new set-up: I still refer to previous "realms", i.e. our other room, the other couch, when I am trying to describe any ole thing. It helps me bridge the old us with the new us.

If that makes any sense at all

[sweepy62]

Hi we pow I missed u I'm glad ur back hugs

[mixedup_emotions]

(((( WePow ))))

I've missed you!

I particularly hate it when something happens that's out of my control while I'm already in a difficult place emotionally. It's like a double-whammy.

I'm sorry you're in a rough place right now. We're here. (( HUGS ))

I have to admit that I would desperately like for my T to get a different couch. I HATE his couch. It's squishy and too low and made for gigantic tall people. Apparently, he has other clients who desperately want him not to change anything so I should not be a total cow about the couch and keep nagging him to get rid of it?

[lostin08]

Hey pow try and go into the office with a picture in your heads with the old look maybe that will help

WePow, I'm so sorry that you're having a rough time right now. I always thought you and your T had such a good r/s, and that you both were working so hard on your therapy. It sounds like you're in a setback, but those are always temporary. As I remember, you're doing some of the really really tough work right now. A step or two backward is to be expected. I understand your regrouping, it's probably necessary for you. Do whatever you need to to keep safe. Glad to hear you're OK. I'm sure your T is working hard for you, and that you're hanging in there. Take care of yourself, don't give up!!! Thanks for checking in to let us know how you're doing. You're in the thoughts of a lot of us here.

[KazzaX]

Im dreading T tomorrow as well. I hear ya!!! Although you probably have had T by now.. I hope it went ok for you!

[eskielover]

Who knows, maybe his taste in new furniture will really wow you & you will be totally amazed at how comfortable & maybe even more homey it is than the previous choice.

Not all change is bad......sometimes it can actually surprise us & be very pleasant & good.

Of course, I am one that liked change in the first place....my whole life was boring growing up.....only change was when I went from one grade to another & got a new teacher....all the faces where the same, my parents life was the same from one year to the next, from one decade to the next......BORING!!!!!!

Found I needed change to find interest in life......but know how many others lives weren't that way & could have used some of my BORING.

One thing is a fact though....all change is stressful.....whether good or bad, there is stress involved & not always that easy to deal with.

Giving you gentle 's for a peaceful & comfortable session & a chance to find out what's being hidden from you & held from your knowledge....know how difficult that has to be......but you did so much wonderful work to get to where you are.....each layer of the onion gets pealed back, the closer to complete it gets.

[Lauru]

I hate change too. I just lost my T and my group yesterday. They don't want to help me anymore. The whole outpatient department dropped me after 7 years. I am too difficult for them, they got angry at me for not getting well enough fast enough. I hate me.

[WePow]

went to T ... two other peeps were there in the waiting area.. some couple with a loud mouth female and pushy male... a daughter in college with a boyfriend who emailed his gf.. their daughter something sappy that she tought was oh too cute an she had to read aloud to her husband.. I wanted to yell at them to shut up! but thought they were waiting on a child with T perhaps sonce his door was closed. but the guy ho came out of tt was no relation. T looked like what are THEY doing here! T told the guy he had them down at five .. and told me to go on in... the guy wanted to argue with T ... T did not let him.

so i go on and the whole office is destroyed
he has it all in a circle with a table thing in the middle... and even his chair is gone.
then he starts up and that loud lady was just yapping ! I could not think. I didnt feel safe AT ALL! and was glad when the nightmare was over.

I feel sorry for T though! if i hate the changes that much, thinking how hard it is for him to have be doing the change! I want to not go back for a while. But I need therapy. and I like my T. there is no room in his room right now... maybe that was it. i felt like i was trapped and then having two parents outside the door made me panic. I didnt cry when i left though. i just kept thinking surley i will wake up. oh well. change is a law of nature. so whatever,

[karebear1]

Sounds like it was tough WePow. Did you say anything to T about the new set up??

I hate it when people come in and talk in the waitnig area- it makes me want to leave the office. The other thign I can't stand is doors slamming- adn they slam all over the palce at T's new office. She sees me jump eveytime, but apologizes and says thehre's nothing she can do about it. Bugs the crud outta me! ;:-(

[ECHOES]

Thinking of you, WePow

change sucks. a couple of years ago t got a new rug. i freaked and was pissed.

after awhile, he gave me a picture of the old rug. a real nice glossy 8x10.... we had made an agreement and i didn't end up holding up my end, but t let me have the picture anyways.

i am sorry you are so exhausted. i hope your t can give you the comfort you need.

sending safe hugs and ask t for a picture. it helps

[WePow]

Well, I go see T in his new whatever in an hour. urrrrrr
Wish I did not have to go!

[ECHOES]

Wishing you a good session, WePow!!

I hope the changes appeal to you and are okay for you!

As I quote often, everything familiar....began as something unfamiliar.

[roads]

Ah, WePow, it seems so unfair that when everything inside gets so bad & really needs our focus, that our outside takes then to go crazy & & everyone out there gets these notions to change things just because they can.

& yes "fair" has nothing to do with anything, but I'm sorry things aren't better for you & everyone & getting back with your T. I'm pulling for you. * gentle hugs *

Roadie