[BonnieJean]

In session today, I felt like I got stuck in some kind of repeating loop of a traumatic experience I had at age six. It felt eerily like I was there again. It started after we talked about the incident for about the dozeneth time over the last two years. She said it might help if I could feel what the six year old felt. I had thought I was all done with it but apparently not. In today's session I first started experiencing fear, then a chill that made me cold from the inside, then I started to tremble and finally cry. I told her how embarrassed I felt but she said she could understand the feelings and they were all necessary. I couldn't get out of it when the time was up and I had to ask her to help me. She talked about all the people who are around who care about me, etc. It was enough for me to stand up and get my coat on and leave but I felt kind of like in shock and still crying in my car. It didn't feel like I was done...

Has this repeating loop ever happened to anyone? It was like the moments played out over and over. I don't know what to think about it. It was scary. I still feel emotionally sore and a little anxious or heavy from it.

This used to happen VERY frequently to me, but now it is a pretty rare occurence. Certainly is frightening and exhausting when it happens, but the good news it that you aren't that 6-year-old any longer.

Yup happened all my life until I spoke about it in therapy. The one image that kept replaying was actually a smoke screen for the stuff that happened much earlier too. It's theminds way of trying to resolve it. With little success alone unfortunately.

[Sannah]

It is necessary to get these feelings out in session so it was all good. These repressed feelings are affecting you today. If you get them out you can move forward. Good work asking for help at the end of session.