[WePow]

Well, today's session was nothing like I thought it would be. In fact, I would never have believed today would have happened the way it did had someone told me about it yesterday at this time.

I am exhausted beyond words ight now with a massive DID headache. So this is a summary. Thank you guys for being here for us.

My session was set for 3:30... it ended up being at 11. I was at work and had a massive flashback I had been sensing for a few weeks that broke through. One of my alters who is like an emergancy parent for all of us took over and let the boss know we were in trouble and leaving to see our T. That is how I am supposed to handle this at work, so I did right my boss said on the phone after it was all over. I am going to take off Wed as well and see T again.

We called our T but it only went to VM. So we drove to his office. He was ot yet there. I planned on just staying in my car until my session time if need be. But I had to go to the restroom and went inside.

In the bathroom I lost it and was crying hard laying on the floor. Seriously, I have major OCD on stuff with bathrooms. Amazing how that went out the window when it felt like my soul was being sucked out of my body.

The same T who helped me last time came in (her office is next to the bathroom so I suspect she heard me.) But she called y T and could not reach him. I was doing all my grounding things I could do and talking to my alters. My T showed up and came inside the bathroon to help me then took me into his office.

The other T had already called 911 because she was worried for me and had not reached y T. My T went outside and told them I was his client and it was ok. I certainly did NOT want to go to the hospital! UGGGG!

T was on his lunch so he was not xpecting anyone. I don't remember much of what went down because I was in full dissociating flashback mode with a six year old alter who I never met before and did not know she had that specific horrid memory. But T named her Precious.

I was able to see what that alter held. I also saw my young alter on T's floor and T was down there with her... us... even laying down for a while. Precious thought she was in her bed and wanted to go to sleep several times. I remember at one point our teeth were chattering like crazy. I do not remember any cold sensation so it must have been a part of that alter or it was PTSD nerves but at some point T covered her with his own coat. I think that really helped that young part to feel safe.

Anyway, wow. I feel like I was hit by a train inside my soul and it feels like a huge bruise on the inside. But I now know about this thing I cannot talk about. But my T knows. And my inner child no longer has that burden alone. All us inside can now share it and heal together.

Thank you for having the courage to share, WePow. I am sorry that it was so difficult for you, but SO glad your T was there for you.

[Willowleaf]

Wow that sounds so hard. Really glad you were able to handle it so well and t was there for you. Hope you can get the support you need in the coming days

[karebear1]

Oh WePow, it sounds like an horrendous day. I'm so sorry that you had to experience this. BUt am so thankful that you have a good boss and an excellent T to help you through it all. I also feel like you are very blessed to have another T that looked out for you and helped you while you were waiting for your T. that was so very sweet of her. I will be thinking about you as you approach this very difficult revelation you can hardly speak of. I hope you will heal quickly my friend.

[BonnieJean]

((((WePow))))

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by WePow

Anyway, wow. I feel like I was hit by a train inside my soul and it feels like a huge bruise on the inside. But I now know about this thing I cannot talk about. But my T knows. And my inner child no longer has that burden alone. All us inside can now share it and heal together.

(WePow))

It sounds like everyone did very well!

I hope you won't be offended when I say, it was a joy to read.

((((WePow))))) Wow, I am glad you are taking today off to care for yourself and see T. Let us know how it goes.

[WePow]

Today was a calm session with T. I needed that. It was a good review and anchoring. My T is here for me. I am very thankful about that.

[karebear1]

I'm so happy for you that today was a gentler session WePow.... and it's good to know taht T is still there for you. You deserve that.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm glad your day was better.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by WePow

Today was a calm session with T. I needed that. It was a good review and anchoring. My T is here for me. I am very thankful about that.

I remember sessions like that.
I've got a long memory.

[WikidPissah]

(((we power)))

We, i don't know how you do it sometimes. you are sooo courageous.
even if you don't feel courageous, i my book you are!!!!

and keep that T!!!!!

sending tons of safe hugs