Ack! How did that happen?!

So anyway I talked to t this afternoon and we spent the whole appointment talking about my sand tray that I shared with ya'all. I know it has been said here before that t's are "wily creatures" um well, yes, I guess I'm finally ready to admit that yes, my t is also a "wily creature". Ha. It's all good though because the way I felt when we were talking about the sand tray - I was just on the verge of saying to her "I don't want to be left alone with this" when she made her pronouncement about me being back in therapy. At another point she really made me chuckle because she said "I don't mean to sound like I'm scolding you, but I am." It made me chuckle because of all the people I know, she is the one person that I can accept 'being scolded' by.

So. I'm back in therapy. And I'm actually happy about it!

[stopdog]

I don't know why any one ever doubts me on the wily thing.

I am, of course, duly concerned about the idea of being happy over therapy. But if it works for you, then I am glad.
(I am teasing here)

I don't necessarily see wily as being a bad thing - it was just unexpected today!!! What she did that was wily, was I said something completely innocent (on my part) and I was talking about the physical properties of the sand itself that when I tried to make a portal through the wall I had built the wall collapsed. This simple sentence she then turned into a question "how does it feel having the wall collapsed?" And I did this involuntary sharp intake of breath that to her shouted out my horror at not having a wall between the "light" side and the "shadow" side if you remember the picture of my sand tray. I then rudely started trying to put words in her mouth and after that was when the scolding statement was said. It was an intense session today after a 3 week break and I'm still a little foggy headed from it!!

SD: "I am, of course, duly concerned about the idea of being happy over therapy."

Well perhaps I should rephrase that happy statement. Not happy that I need it in the first place. What I actually meant was, I am a happier person all the way around since I started this journey, and while I wanted to be done with it and do the work on my own, I can see from today's session that I'm not actually too keen on being "left alone" with whatever is bubbling up inside me that started to show itself in that sand tray. She pushed me today more than she ever has before and it was not comfortable at all!

But even when our sessions are uncomfortable, even when the work itself is hard, when I look back overall at how far I've come and how much progress I've made and how happy I am in general opposed to a year and a half ago - I'd say yes, I am happy to be "back in therapy"!

[stopdog]

Your description sounds like Greek - or science fiction - to me. But there are times when I am a stranger in a strange land here.
But I certainly do wish you well with it and your delight is nice to observe.