[SingDanceRunLife]

Since I'm out in California, and my T is back home, and well, things went to hell out here, I called her, left a message and asked her to call me back ASAP. A few hours later, she called me back saying that she had a last minute cancellation, so we could do a phone session if I wanted.

It was strange, not seeing her face to face, not sitting in my seat that has been my seat since my very first time seeing her 5 years ago. We've never talked on the phone for more than 5 minutes before really, just quick calls to schedule sessions. But at the same time, once I got used to the fact that we weren't in person, it turned into a really good session.

She helped ease my anxiety a bit, helped me figure out some options, understood me through all my crying (and I I've never cried to her so much -- I think this is only the second time ever I've cried with her). But at the same time, it was more tiring than a regular session, although that could be just because I cried so much, but partly it was the pacing. If I stay out in California though, I will keep in touch with her because even over the phone she's good. But, I may be going home soon. I don't know.

Anyway, now that I've showered and talked to my parents and have done job searching, I need a nap.

[unaluna]

I'm glad you were able to talk with her. What you're trying to do - move - isn't easy! It's very difficult. But it's possible.

[wotchermuggle]

Glad to hear that the session was helpful. Hopefully you can make a go of it in the new place!!

[SingDanceRunLife]

I'm hoping things work out...but I also just want to go home. I feel like maybe I wasn't ready to leave...or maybe that I went too far...I miss everything, and I miss the familiarity...this was a big move and it didn't turn out like I had planned and hoped so...

But I have an interview tomorrow, and I'll hopefully either get a solid yes or no. If it's a yes, I can go home ASAP. If it's a no, I'll probably stay the week since I have another meeting set up with another family, and a phone interview with a third.