[Freewilled]

Ok...so I went to my appt. last night (dragging myself kicking and screaming ) and it was much better. I didn't have a panic attack like the week before and told my T straight away about my frustrations with therapy and how it seems like after a session I'm thinking it was very productive but then the next time I shut down. I also talked to him about my transference stuff - fears about him being frustrated with me etc.

It was a pretty good session and I was just relieved that I stayed present for the most part and didn't panic. Now here's my question: has anyone ever had odd images about your T crop up after a session? I kept imagining myself putting my head on his shoulder...I'm not having any erotic-transference stuff but its more like just resting my head on his shoulder - like being cared for, letting go, giving up a burden...idk. It was weird to me because its never happened to me before and it just kept popping into my head yesterday evening. Then, of course, I started worrying about what it meant

Any thoughts?

[chumchum]

Originally Posted by Freewilled

Ok...so I went to my appt. last night (dragging myself kicking and screaming ) and it was much better. I didn't have a panic attack like the week before and told my T straight away about my frustrations with therapy and how it seems like after a session I'm thinking it was very productive but then the next time I shut down. I also talked to him about my transference stuff - fears about him being frustrated with me etc.

It was a pretty good session and I was just relieved that I stayed present for the most part and didn't panic. Now here's my question: has anyone ever had odd images about your T crop up after a session? I kept imagining myself putting my head on his shoulder...I'm not having any erotic-transference stuff but its more like just resting my head on his shoulder - like being cared for, letting go, giving up a burden...idk. It was weird to me because its never happened to me before and it just kept popping into my head yesterday evening. Then, of course, I started worrying about what it meant

Any thoughts?

Your thoughts of being physically comforted by yout T are very normal! No need to worry as this is a sign that he is comforting to you. I would tell him and you may get the hug you need or maybe just a talk about how he understands your need to be held. I do that all the time with the thoughts of my T hugging me or me putting my head on his shoulder. It feels good even if it is just a thought.

[Perna]

I had a literal dream where I put my head in T's lap and she was stroking my hair That was fun telling her about, NOT!

[pbutton]

I once told him I was having repeating images of wanting to hug his car. LOL

LOL on the car hugging.

With my first T, for YEARS after I stopped therapy, I used the image of him holding me as a way to get to sleep.

[tinyrabbit]

I sometimes have this weird image of wanting to sit right up close to T and kind of sit under his arm, almost in his armpit.

The other day, I realised my cat curls up under my husband's arm in the exact same way in the mornings.