[sweepy62]

Saw my t today was a nervous wreck she says we are going to process this with the male t next week in one of my seed ions so it will be me my t and him in my room he already knows so in group today he did act a little less close to me an that did hurt because at the end of group we always answer two questions on a sheet and hand I to him on thi sheet I always draw a smiley face and say something nice ex have a nice weekend. And he always reads it and smiles this time he flipped it over and placed it at the bottom of the bunch it made me feel like a kid being punished the hard part is I see him again before I see my reg t. This transference ( fatherly) bug is making me sic in combo with my other issues

[unaluna]

Sweepy, you're reaching out to your t's. This is a good thing. It means you're open to the transference, the transference process is working. Hopefully these t's are also open to working with the transference. That you feel scared and scolded are feelings from your past - I can totally relate to that. In a way, you are telling them about your past by reaching out to them in this way - leaving little notes, giving gifts. I gave my t so many little gifts, I said I was like a cat leaving "treasures" for their person! The difference is your substance t is still under supervision and you yourself are fairly new to t - like less than one year? Whereas my t and I both have 30 plus years experience - not that it's doing me THAT much good! I may understand the "rules" or reason of t, but applying it to real life is the kicker.

To sum up, just keep being yourself and keep the lines of communication open. Try to hear what your t's say. I think it's great that you just go there and be yourself. We just need to find the people who can appreciate us.

[sweepy62]

Thank u so much transference is scary right now I'm scared my male ptsd group t which I have the fatherly transference with I don't get it my dad was very abusivive ( trauma) my substance abuse t I hate and will stop seeing only have three group sessions with and my individual t I love which I'm doing trauma and now transference work all in one years time I feel scared with all these feelings