So ready to unload my brain

The last time I actually had a session with my T or my pdoc was the first week in June. General chaos and finances have made sessions impossible all summer. Since then, all hell has broken loose multiple times. I've spoken to T via phone a few times, but boy am I ready to just sit down and unload it all on him.

Come September 1 our medical spending account refills, so sessions will finally be viable again. All things considered, I've handled things well, but the stress adds up and T kind of serves as my pressure relief valve.

I start back to work on Monday, and I cannot remember a less refreshing summer vacation in my entire teaching career. That includes the summer I was hospitalized twice. Even that was not this stressful. I think I need to make a list of my summer adventures for T:

1. My husband had an awful BPD episode where he was delusional and suicidal.
2. My 82 year old father had major surgery.
3. My husband developed lithium toxicity requiring dialysis and an 8 day stay in ICU. He became completely psychotic during his hospital stay.
4. We lost husbands pay for nearly a month, so finances have been incredibly tight.
5. My father was readmitted to the hospital for suspected heart attack (fortunately that wasn't it).
6. My sister's best friend posted a suicide note and I watched it all unfold as friends scrambled to save his life. They weren't able to save him and he died later that day.

Those were the biggies. Lots of others as part of the trickle down effect. The good news is that I managed through it, not completely unscathed, but I'm still standing. I'm tired though and need to unload on an unbiased party. Look out T. Be ready for an earfull.

Ok I have no excuse for my mental health issues after reading yours. Your plate is full!

((Sierra))

I don't think anyone could be expected to cope with all that.

wow

Well done for coping as well as you have.

Hee, hee. Not a contest. I just needed to vent, and I can finally realistically anticipate finally getting to see both my T and my pdoc.

It has been a ride, but I really have to pat myself on the back for managing as well as I have. My fear is that my reserves are pretty depleted going into teaching again. I don't want to have held it together thus far only to crash down the road. Thus my need to get back in with T so I have extra eyes on me.

I'm glad you will be able to see your t.

Me too. I can almost predict breathing again.

maybe things will start to move uphill now chris .wow that was quite a stressful summer

That was a lot to cope with on your own I think your t wil be proud of you when you eventually get to see him!

So many major stress generators! The fact that you made it through all this is a tribute to your strength. I'm glad you'll be able to discuss all with your t soon.

So it's back to school tomorrow (not so excited about that), and tomorrow night is my first rehearsal with the Dallas Symphony Chorus (extremely excited about this!).

But my son is going to school to help me set up my room and get all my technology hooked back up, so that will make tomorrow more enjoyable.

I plan to call T's secretary tomorrow to set up my first session for the first week or two of September. Yay!!

It will be a long day as chorus doesn't end until 9:45pm and it's way down in downtown Dallas, but it will be a good tiring day.

Good luck with the start of the new school year, Chris. I'm glad you can see your therapist again very soon.

I hope your H is doing OK after his dialysis to remove the lithium. Scary!

He is doing so much better now. Thanks for asking. It was a scary, almost fatal incident. Still a bit traumatizing for us both actually, but we're still plugging along.