[Miswimmy1]

So yesterday was a rough session. T and I re-discussed my anger over being separated from old T. At one point in our conversation, T asked me, 'Would you go back to old t? Or is that a stupid question because of course you would?" I became quite angry at this question because I felt like it was unfair to have me imagine whether or not I would go back, when that was obviously not an option right now. I felt like T was asking this question unsessisarily. I emailed her about it last night, and we talked on the phone this morning.

I decided to be very blunt with her, and I asked her directly, "Would you ever support me going back to old T, or are you completely against it?" What she said next gave me the most hope I've had in a long time: "No I'm not totally out. I wouldn't recommend it right now, but I can see some good reasons for you to go back to her, that might even be healthy."

I am jumping for joy inside. Without T on my side, there will never be any chance of me going back to old T, not until I turn 18 at least. But if T is on my side, and better yet, voices her support, then that means so much! We ended our conversation with an agreement that we are going to take things day by day. But I have hope in me that I will see old T again. I am so happy right now!

[CantExplain]

One of the principles of therapy is that you are free to think about what you want even if you know you won't get it. Your desires are part of you identity.

PS.

I keep forgetting how young you are. In some ways you can be very mature.

[Bill3]

Any further developments?