Called T today

I have been feeling completely overwhelmed with some stuff that happened this weekend. My negative self talk has been completely in overdrive and while I can identify that it's not *my* voice that I'm hearing, it's still hard to ignore. When the same negative thoughts keep circling through your head, it's hard to not start believing them.

I called T this morning, and she gave me a call back between sessions. We only had about 10 minutes to talk, and it just wasn't enough. Usually it is; usually talking to T for even a short amount of time helps. Today, I just ended up feeling like I need more. I need to tell her about what happened to trigger these feelings and this negative self talk. T asked me to send her an update by text later today. I will, but it's not going to be a very positive update. I'm still feeling too overwhelmed.

I'm meeting with T on Thursday, but part of me feels like I need to see her sooner. Or, maybe have a longer phone call with her. I dunno - I need something more than just 10 minutes on the phone. I've never done two sessions in one week, but maybe that's an option...I already had things that I NEED to talk to her about on Thursday and I don't want to push those off, but what I'm dealing with right now needs to be addressed as well.

Call and see if you can get in before then. I've had weeks when I've seen my T multiple times because I was a bit (or a lot) in a crisis and phone calls just weren't going to do it. If that isn't a possibility, then ask if you can be called at a time before then for a longer phone consultation.

I'm so sorry!

Is the overwhelmed thing getting stronger not weaker?

Can you think of a set of coping strategies in case you cannot see her sooner?

What would the consequences be in terms of expense? Or are you covered enough to be able to do this?

Right now, yes, the overwhelmed is getting stronger...mostly because I can't stop thinking about it and can't seem to allow the emotions to hang around long enough to work through them. If I could let myself cry or scream or express some kind of emotion, it might fade...but I keep distancing from the emotions. I know T would help me stay with them and deal with them.

Yeah - I'm working on coping strategies. T offered a few ideas, I've done those. I know other things to try...it's just that I feel like I'm constantly trying to cope and as soon as I stop the overwhelmed feeling comes back.

Expense - I pay completely out of pocket, so it would be another session to pay for. Not cheap, but I could make it work if I need to.

Thanks. I'm thinking a longer phone call might be a good option. I'll see what her reply to my text update is.

I ended up scheduling a call with T for tomorrow. The texts were particularly unhelpful...but I didn't expect it to be. I need to just talk to her. She offered a call tonight, but I don't want to intrude on her evening and I'm tired of talking on the phone today, since I just got done with a series of conference calls. Hoping a longer conversation will help.

Take care, BlessedRhiannon. Your T sounds very nice and supportive. Let's hope your conversation with her tomorrow is helpful.

I'm glad you were able to get another call in before your session and hope that will help more