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Old Oct 04, 2013, 11:51 AM
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I absolutely hate HATE this thing called vulnerability which I have been feeling the past three sessions. It is the absolute worst defensless feeling imo that I have felt I think. I have never felt this with my former t, then again with my former t, I never spoke so much, as I used to write down my feelings, and she used to read them, and I used to either agree on her oppinion or not. This t does not read stuff, she wants me to talk all the time, so that I can process stuff.

This is what being vulnerable feels like to me> I get this warm feeling all over me, then I feel like my eyes are about to well up ( and I dont cry in or out of therapy) then I kind of curl up, then I feel like I am an 8 yr old kid, I shut down because I am afraid if I talk tears will start to fall, so I start to think of funny things, but I cant, then I start to get angry because I become overwhelmed.

omg this vulnerability thing $#@#$ bigtime, I told my t how I feel, and she seems thrilled about it, but, I think this is not a normal feeling, I feel defenseless, I feel out in the open with nothing to hold on too, afraid nowhere to hide, how do you guys feel about this, I know this might be a boring post on my part, but hey I am a boring poster.
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 11:56 AM
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Hey Sweepy you are not boring and thanks for the post. When I feel vulnerable in therapy I want to quit and run away from it all. I hate feeling exposed, it makes me nervous and unpredictable.
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:12 PM
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Yeah, vulnerability totally sucks. I feel like I want to either cry or run away. I hate feeling exposed and vulnerable. It feels very scary to me and I usually start to panic. However - by allowing myself to be vulnerable, I've made so much progress with this T! It's hard, but it does allow you to make progress in therapy and helps deepen relationships outside of therapy.
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:29 PM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:33 PM
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I can definitely relate to wanting to curl up like a kid. I've been with my T for a long time, and I still have a hard time with vulnerability. It's really tough saying things out loud; it sounds so much more intense, stupid, pathetic, or weird out loud than inside my head.
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:38 PM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

thanks for the suggestion I will check it out tonight
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:44 PM
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I am totally jealous. I struggle to FEEL in session. My brain just takes over. There are obstacles neither I nor my t even realize are obstacles. (This is why it's so important to just say whatever comes to mind, because you never know what could make a difference, like my telling t I like when he has the door open when he walks in, thanks to illegal toilet's seemingly innocuous question of who walks in first). So - way to go, sweepy!
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 12:45 PM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

This particular video makes me cry!!! My T suggested I watch it. It is a very good talk, though.
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Old Oct 04, 2013, 01:05 PM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

This was a great suggestion, thanks! It really helped me out.
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Old Oct 05, 2013, 05:32 PM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

Very logical (for those of us who run from emotion to logic) and I found great meaning in what she said.

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Old Oct 06, 2013, 04:31 AM
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I totally agree, vulnerability SUCKS!
Have you ever listened to Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability? Google it or look it up on youtube

I SUCK! at vulnerability..... thank you whole heartedly for this Healing Times.
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Old Oct 06, 2013, 04:32 AM
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I am so glad that people have found the video useful.
It really spoke me to when i first watched it too
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