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Grand Poohbah
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I'm getting this distinct feeling that the more my therapist gets to know me the more she backs off because I'm just unpleasant. This makes me want to quit, obviously. I feel like a lost cause.
For example, a few weeks ago she was all like "no you're not needy or demanding, other people in your life have not met you fairly" etc, and she was warm and I believed her. But last night it had changed to "well we'll see if you are needy and demanding, and understand why and see what we can do to change it" and I felt a bit...I dunno. Like she's seeing how awful I really am and doesn't feel I'm worth it. Other little things have changed too, like she's become more formal in her communication with me, less relaxed and warm and friendly. It does hurt ![]() |
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If you keep saying or asking if you are needy and demanding, you are indicating that you aren't really trusting her answer, so I suspect she's changing her approach to "since you seem not to trust my answer and apparently need more proof, we'll have to investigate your fear about this and see if you really are needy and demanding, and if you are right in your own assessment of yourself, we'll see what we can do to change that since you are not comfortable with being perceived that way". Continuing to ask the question means you aren't trusting/understanding/internalizing her response, so she has to change her approach rather than you just continuing, apparently stuck in that spot. That doesn't mean she doesn't like you; that means she is trying to help you find a way to move forward.
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Grand Poohbah
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Oh. Well admittedly I didn't think of it that way. Thanks for bringing up that possibility, Chris.
Therapy is driving me DEMENTED. I spend about half the week stressed and miserable about the process itself, let alone all the stuff that brought me there in the first place. Fed up. |
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it matters because you've just said it matters to you
![]() I hope you can let her know these things and raise the questions you asked here so that you can hear her answer about the change in what she is saying |
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((((IG))))) Of course it hurts and of course it matters! I so understand about being stressed about the process itself on top of the stuff that brought you into therapy. You described it very well here and I completely understand what you're saying. Let's hope it was a miscommunication. How was her tone like the time she said "well we'll see if you're needy and demanding"? Let's hope it's just bad phrasing and she meant it as just "reality testing", a different approach to helping you? Was she trying to agree with what you said? No matter what, I can understand how it can feel hurtful when you already feel so bad about yourself and so sensitive. You just needed extra warmth and reassurance maybe? I'm not sure what's going on but hope you're able to bring it up.... As for the formal approach, can you ask your T about this, too? Mine is mostly warm but some days she is more cool and formal, I think that's when she has a lot going on in her life and is in a bad mood. ...?
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Grand Poohbah
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Thank you, Tigergirl. I really can't bring it up with her though. I can't bring myself to allow another person to detail why exactly I'm not good enough, not deserving enough, too rubbish for genuine help.
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Hi Melody Bells, thanks
![]() No, it wasn't bad phrasing, it was a written response to a message I sent her after our session where I was feeling ashamed and bad for how much resentment I'd disclosed for a member of my family. I was all like "I'm weak and pathetic etc" and she said no I wasn't, and I said basically I had no idea when I crossed that line with my family person, and so had no idea when I'd become too much/too needy with the therapist. And then she said what she said. Whereas before, she seemed adamant that I wasn't at all needy... Urgh I don't know. I really can't broach any of this with her. Especially not the lack of warmth - I cannot make myself say "but why don't you call me pet names anymore, or put x's on the end of your mails?" How neurotic does that look! ![]() |
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It looks to me like you want reassurance you are not needy and that you view neediness as "awful". At the same time, you feel like you are needy and awful. How can your T help you with that, break into those loops? That is what I would discuss. I think you would benefit by discussing exactly what you mean by needy and demanding and why you feel that is awful. Everyone needs other people, everyone needs "attention". If we do not know how to get our needs met, to get the attention we need, the help we need, to ask for it and negotiate that whole interaction, that's a problem (not that we need others and attention in the first place). __________________ "Never give a sword to a man who can't dance." ~Confucius |
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If it helps, I did with my T when she did something similar. I whined in a childish voice about "why don't you xxx anymore..." and rambled on about how confused and hurt I was. She listened to my feelings with empathy, explained some stuff, and we repaired the rupture. Please keep us updated on what you decide to do and how you're feeling. ![]() ![]() Last edited by Melody_Bells; Oct 09, 2013 at 08:06 AM.. |
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Just tell her how you received what she said. It is good fodder for therapy discussion. It sounds like you have some fears/issues surrounding the idea of being perceived as needy that you need to work through in therapy, and this is a perfect opening to get into the subject. |
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